mean trashy. I just donât enjoy science fiction.â
â 1984 , Brave New World , those are great books, no?â
âTheyâre okay.â
âOkay, 1984 is just okay ?â
âHoney,â she tries to soothe. âListen, if you donât want to look for another job, then youâll just have to keep writing and hoping for the best. Iâm just not sure science fiction is the way to go.â
âFine.â
âYouâre mad.â
âNo.â
âYes you are, I can tell.â
âWhatever, letâs just try to enjoy the meal.â
We switch topics to going to see a film. So we hit the Bytowne Cinema after dinner and see some Italian comedy that neither Sarah nor I find particularly funny. We arrive home and another rejection letter is waiting in the mailbox. Iâm pissed. I strip naked in the hall and tell Sarah to get undressed. I fuck her angrily and the sex is great. After I pull out, she moves into an upside-down bicycle. I find a bottle of wine and crack it open. I pour two glasses and sit naked in the dark in the living room. I wonder if Iâm ever going to make it. In this moment, I foresee my life as a series of endless little tasks: tie your shoes, wait for the elevator, do your job, fuck your wife as you are told to. Sarah appears wearing just panties. Her beauty strikes me in such a way that it throws me off kilter, as if somebody called out my name for a prize I didnât even know I was nominated for. She grabs her glass off the coffee table as she sits beside me.
âIt will happen.â
âThe book or the baby?â
âBoth,â she says.
Day 13
Itâs Saturday and Iâm hungover, as Iâm sure Sarah is, too. Whenever Iâm hungover, all I want to do is screw and drink chocolate milkshakes. I smell Sarahâs armpit and Marvin springs to life â Iâm a rock.
âCome on baby, day thirteen,â I tell her. She still has her eyes closed, but I can tell sheâs awake.
âJust get on me and do it, Iâm not moving.â
I pump away for some time, probably only about seven minutes before I finish. Sarah seems to be enjoying it near the end. When I pull out, she spins around and puts her legs up on the wall and says, âGod, your breath is fucking awful.â
âThanks, sexy,â I say smiling and happy.
âMake me a coffee, will you?â
I walk to the bathroom and piss away my morning erection. As I pass by the bedroom doorway on my way to the kitchen, I ask, âFrench toast?â
âSure,â she says, her feet still planted on the wall.
Day 14
We go to our friendsâ place for brunch. Theyâre big potheads; my characters Dean and Marsha in Hungry Hole are modelled after them. I suspect that they are stoned when we get there, but I donât think I could really tell either way. They are admitted chronics. Theyâve just gotten used to being high all the time, and now they act just as normal as anyone else. Strange. We spend the rest of the afternoon touring the market, picking up a horn-of-plenty satchel of goods.
Arriving home, Sarah has a bath while I hit the kitchen to embark on food preparations. Iâm slicing ginger for a chicken stir-fry when Sarah materializes in the kitchen doorway wearing unbelievably sexy red lingerie with black high heels.
âCome get some,â she purrs.
I put down my knife and go get some.
Day 15
I arrive home late, almost 7:30, after a day of computer problems at the office. Sarah left work early today because she felt so lousy, and has been home alone for hours. The place looks like a dirty laundry bomb went off.
âHowâs it going baby?â I ask her.
âI feel just fucking awful on the drugs. I stood up at my desk and thought I was going to pass out. People say that all the time but Iâm not kidding you. My vision went blurry and I lost my balance. It was really
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