dessert special. Somehow we all wound up at Mary Luâs . . . I was upset . . . She asked about you . . . I said we broke up . . .â
âDonât grovel. Youâre too good for that. I believe you. This time.â
He exhales. âSo, youâre really leaving?â
âIâm really leaving.â The confession feels right. Worthy of a true cartwheel.
Ricky raises his chin. âSo, then.â
âSo, then,â I echo, hoping thereâs more. Will he finally say heâs happy for me?
âBetter get to work.â
âRight.â
Hard to imagine a few days ago we were necking behind the stairs.
As I walk to my aisle, Martina is belting âIndependence Dayâ over the PA, and my confidence kicks up a little. Iâm sure Iâm doing the right thingâI think.
From the end of the upstairs hall, the attic calls me to visit. I stare at the attic door with my hand wrapped around the handle of Daddyâs old leather suitcase.
Leaving home stirs a longing to roam and reminisce, so I sit the luggage inside my bedroom door and creep across the moaning hardwood floor to the attic door. The attic is not off limitsâno room in the McAfee house is off limitsâbut the attic has always contained secrets. Mommaâs. So, I feel a little devious sneaking up the stairs.
At the top of the steps, the musty fragrance reminds me of rainy Saturday afternoons, playing up here with Eliza and Steve, turning the attic into a wilderness fort or a Star Wars space station.
Remembering Great-Grandma Lukemanâs authentic Tiffany lamp is in the far corner next to her worn rocker, I fumble in the dark until my fingers touch the lampâs faded gold chain. With one click, a rosy glow angles across the room.
The attic is cozy and warm, stuffed to the gills with things Momma calls memories.
First, thereâs the wall of Mommaâs ribbons. Hundreds of them. Each one embossed with a gold-lettered âFirst Place.â Great day in the morning. Bit McAfee, Queen of Canning. Queen of First Place. She should visit Eliza this summer and stop in on the queen. Jude Perry can write a headline: âQueen of Canning to Visit Queen of England.â
In the corner opposite of the ribbons is Mommaâs cedar chest. I try the lid. Locked. Still locked. Always locked. We used to asked her about it when we were kidsânot because we cared, but because she told us, âNever you mind,â gave us cookies, and turned on the TV.
But today I notice something sticking out from under the chestâs lid. I lightly tug on the corner of a picture and carry it over to the light.
In faded Kodak color, thereâs Momma, her face framed with Farrah Fawcett hair. Sheâs smiling and her expression is one Iâve never seen before. So carefree.
There are four others in the picture with Momma. Two men and two women. I study their faces. Theyâre young, about my age, but captured in time twenty-five years ago. The guysâ long hair flows into their wide, open collars, and one of them sports Elvis-like sideburns. I run my finger over the snapshotâs smooth surface.
Who are these people, Momma? What are you doing? Why have I never seen this before?
I flip the photo over to see if Momma wrote anything on the back. She didnât. At the bottom of the picture, thereâs a sign or something. But the image is torn, and I canât make out the words. I try to match the photoâs tattered edges, but they are too frayed.
âRobin?â A muffled call floats up the stairs.
I jerk my head up.
âRobin, where are you? Elizaâs on the phone.â
I hurry to the trunk and try to slip the photo in, but it wonât go. Trying a different angle, I only manage to get the picture stuck. Now what? I tug lightly to free the picture, and then rrrrrip .
Crap. Perfect. Just perfect.
Another muffled, âRobin Rae! Mercy, did you fall in the toilet? Elizaâs
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