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generic self-diagnosed socially awkward penguin. I've been to a psychiatrist,
diagnosed with moderate to severe social-anxiety and was put on medication. I know about the adrenaline rush you get when a stranger gets near you, the almost heart attack you feel
when you try to talk during a class or a meeting (as if you ever do), the long lonely walks you take not to deal with strangers, the unfounded shame when you look another person in the eye, the huge wall you put between strangers. Sweating, trembling, panic attacks, self hate, suicidal impulses, I've been through it all. I've been attempting quitting for two years now and this is the longest I've abstained. I no longer experience the ‘torture’ I described above.
No I'm not a new person, not a social butterfly. I'm still myself but I'm free of the shackles we call social phobia. In this past two years I've made more connections, hit on more women, made more friends than I did in my first 25 years. I feel content and comfortable in my own
skin, and the wall I put between myself and other people has crumbled.
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Social interaction. I was completely afraid of it and incapable of it 50 days ago. In the past week or so, I have interacted incredibly smoothly and effortlessly with people with whom
I would have been unable to interact with while using. I used to be unable to look people in
the eyes. I used to purposefully hide from people I knew in public so as to avoid awkward conversation. I wasn't able to be invested in the conversation. Women, even those I knew personally, would intimidate me. I would fantasize throughout the day about being able to interact like a normal human... All of this is now changing before my eyes in a most drastic
way. I can interact with confidence; be myself. I can hold an unbreakable gaze into other people's eyes. I am actually part of the conversation, as opposed to being aloof and thinking
about leaving it.
*
New people I meet tell me they like my confidence and they think I'm a good speaker, compliments I would've never expected to hear just a few months ago.
*
My interactions with females are completely transformed. It seems there is some
unconscious recognition that you have more power or something. It's hard to explain.
Females are complimenting me on my looks and body. My awareness around social situations
is much better. I can read people's body language better. People cannot intimidate me as before. I feel that their anger just bounces off me, and I stay in a serene state.
Inability to concentrate
Those who reboot commonly report that they have ‘better concentration’, ‘no more brain fog’, ‘clearer thinking’ and ‘improved memory’. Addiction neuroscientists have repeatedly shown that internet addiction produces memory, concentration and impulse-control problems in
some users, as well as corresponding brain changes. [35] For example, researchers found that the severity of ADHD symptoms correlates with the severity of internet addiction, even when they
take into account anxiety, depression and personality traits .[36] And, as we'll see later, German researchers recently confirmed that moderate porn use, even by non-addicts, correlates with shrunken grey matter in regions of the brain associated with cognitive function. [37]
When I was [using internet porn] I had brain fog or a constant hung-over-like feeling, which made it hard for me to concentrate, talk to people or just do my everyday tasks. After 7-10 days without porn this feeling went away. My mind became very clear, thoughts easily controllable, and I became much more relaxed in general.
*
I am 34 and went on Adderall for the first time a few months ago. 2 months after quitting
porn, I really don't even need it anymore. Some of the benefits I have experienced: I can retain and remember information a lot better. I remember events in my past life a lot better. I am not irritable, and am more focused. I can execute tasks a lot
diagnosed with moderate to severe social-anxiety and was put on medication. I know about the adrenaline rush you get when a stranger gets near you, the almost heart attack you feel
when you try to talk during a class or a meeting (as if you ever do), the long lonely walks you take not to deal with strangers, the unfounded shame when you look another person in the eye, the huge wall you put between strangers. Sweating, trembling, panic attacks, self hate, suicidal impulses, I've been through it all. I've been attempting quitting for two years now and this is the longest I've abstained. I no longer experience the ‘torture’ I described above.
No I'm not a new person, not a social butterfly. I'm still myself but I'm free of the shackles we call social phobia. In this past two years I've made more connections, hit on more women, made more friends than I did in my first 25 years. I feel content and comfortable in my own
skin, and the wall I put between myself and other people has crumbled.
*
Social interaction. I was completely afraid of it and incapable of it 50 days ago. In the past week or so, I have interacted incredibly smoothly and effortlessly with people with whom
I would have been unable to interact with while using. I used to be unable to look people in
the eyes. I used to purposefully hide from people I knew in public so as to avoid awkward conversation. I wasn't able to be invested in the conversation. Women, even those I knew personally, would intimidate me. I would fantasize throughout the day about being able to interact like a normal human... All of this is now changing before my eyes in a most drastic
way. I can interact with confidence; be myself. I can hold an unbreakable gaze into other people's eyes. I am actually part of the conversation, as opposed to being aloof and thinking
about leaving it.
*
New people I meet tell me they like my confidence and they think I'm a good speaker, compliments I would've never expected to hear just a few months ago.
*
My interactions with females are completely transformed. It seems there is some
unconscious recognition that you have more power or something. It's hard to explain.
Females are complimenting me on my looks and body. My awareness around social situations
is much better. I can read people's body language better. People cannot intimidate me as before. I feel that their anger just bounces off me, and I stay in a serene state.
Inability to concentrate
Those who reboot commonly report that they have ‘better concentration’, ‘no more brain fog’, ‘clearer thinking’ and ‘improved memory’. Addiction neuroscientists have repeatedly shown that internet addiction produces memory, concentration and impulse-control problems in
some users, as well as corresponding brain changes. [35] For example, researchers found that the severity of ADHD symptoms correlates with the severity of internet addiction, even when they
take into account anxiety, depression and personality traits .[36] And, as we'll see later, German researchers recently confirmed that moderate porn use, even by non-addicts, correlates with shrunken grey matter in regions of the brain associated with cognitive function. [37]
When I was [using internet porn] I had brain fog or a constant hung-over-like feeling, which made it hard for me to concentrate, talk to people or just do my everyday tasks. After 7-10 days without porn this feeling went away. My mind became very clear, thoughts easily controllable, and I became much more relaxed in general.
*
I am 34 and went on Adderall for the first time a few months ago. 2 months after quitting
porn, I really don't even need it anymore. Some of the benefits I have experienced: I can retain and remember information a lot better. I remember events in my past life a lot better. I am not irritable, and am more focused. I can execute tasks a lot
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