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later, so I was going to my section 8 apartment to get prepared for it. I pulled up and walked into the house. My three-year-old son, Dalvin, came running to me. “Mommy! I missed you,” he cooed at me. I had him when I was seventeen. At the time, I was fucking so many niggas that I didn’t know who he belonged to
    So, I kept him a secret, letting my grandma watch him while I was out. She thought I had a real nine to five. But she didn’t know that I was cooking, weighing, and bagging dope. That was something she didn’t need to know. But, anyways, I scooped him up and gave him kisses. Though I was considered a hoe, I loved my son and the moment I found out I was pregnant, I knew I couldn’t get rid of him. It wasn’t in me to take a life away from someone who never had the chance to live at least some of it. I wanted a dad in his life, but honestly, I didn’t know where to start to find his real father. 
    At the time, when I was 17, I was dating Dallas, some boys off their team, and this old man I gathered money from. Being that I was a hoe back then, I knew nobody would claim him. Call me crazy, but he was favoring Dallas’ ass more and more every day. I wanted to bring it to his attention, but hell, who would believe me. Like I said, in the beginning, Dallas and I was fucking with one another hard. He ended up cutting me off because they hood was talking and he claimed I just wanted to spend his money. The day he left, a few weeks later, I found out I was with child. I stayed off the scene for nine whole months until I had my son. After that, I went to De’Nardo about working in a trap. I claimed to want more for myself but that wasn’t it. I knew working under him, I was bound to be near Dallas. Just my luck, they placed me in the trap him and Quis ran. Even if it meant just sucking his dick, I was all for it. Because I loved him, I wanted to be near him. He didn’t think I knew but I caught when he called me M and, in all honesty, the shit made my blood boil. I wasn’t feeling it and they would know that one day. He was mine before her little spoiled ass came along, and he would be mine after she was gone as well.
     

De’Nardo
    I hate when people think you’re not hip to the games they play. I knew everything from Dallas and Miracle to Halee and Marquis. Hell, even when little Halee let my son take her virginity. I knew it all, including the fact that Danielle was back trying to win Dallas over. I could see the look in her eyes that she wanted my daughter out of the picture and I would have that bitch’s head if she considered hurting a single strand of hair on my daughter. I played stupid and oblivious to everything. I had ears and eyes everywhere; I could be elsewhere, but I had my people on GO! Didn’t shit move and they didn’t think I knew about it. If they did, they were sadly mistaken because I knew. I been in this game since I was a Jit; all my workers I put on because I done been through the struggle as well.
    I saw so much potential in both Dallas and Marquis, which was why I told my son not to bring any unnecessary drama into the squad. When it’s business, ain’t none of that father son shit; it was strictly business and he knew it. I would hate to have to fire my own son. But I would if it meant keeping shit leveled out. Some would consider me coldhearted while others wouldn’t. I just didn’t like shit fucking with my money. Though I had more money than I knew what to do with it, sometimes it was never enough. That’s how I knew it was time for me to exit the game; I was beginning to get greedy and anything could happen when you get greedy. I don’t know about most drug dealers, but I liked my freedom. Shit, I wasn’t looking to be on anyone else’s time but my own.
    My mind went to my wife. Lord knows I missed her. She died on the operating table while giving birth to Miracle. When she came out, we hadn’t had a name, which is why I named her Miracle. That’s why I cherished