for you if you believed what they say.â
âPerhaps.â
Overcome with a sudden hunger she got up and took the satchel off the shelf; she peered into it.
âHave a banana?â
âNo thanks. I never eat between meals.â
âDo you mind if I have one? There are three there.â
âGo ahead. Help yourself.â
She took out a banana and pulled the peel back carefully. The flesh of the fruit was beginning to turn from cream to pulpy brown. Reluctantly she sat down again, stretching her legs out in front of her. She wanted to move them, pace like a lion backwards and forwards in her cage. Her long second toe poked inquisitively through the wet canvas of her sandshoe. She chewed and gazed at it as if she were alarmed somehow at its appearance. He wondered whether he should pick up his book and continue with his reading.
âWhatâs your name?â she asked after a long, long silence.
âHavenât we had this conversation before?â
âIt didnât get us very far. One ought ⦠really ⦠technically ⦠to know oneâs lodgerâs name. I mean ⦠youâre not a ⦠but⦠anyway.â
He didnât say a word.
She folded the empty banana skin and put it into her pocket.
âYour name isnât Robert, by any chance?â
âIâve had so many names down the years.â
âWas Robert ever one of them?â
âNot that I can recall. Itâs not really a very interesting name.â
âMy father was called Robert.â
He roared with laughter. After a moment she laughed, too, and their laughter and the wind shook the little hut.
âAh now, ah come on now, Nancy! Youâre not blaming me for that?â
âWhy not? Why not you?â
âHow do you know his name is Robert? After all, if you donât believe what they say â¦â
âI know that. Grandfather talks about Robert from time to time, and heâs well past telling lies. Anyway, I have this book.â Her fingers stroked an ancient childhood scar on her knee as she spoke. She forever had to be moving. Her hands did not know the meaning of the word peace. âItâs a Yeats first edition. You know, that lovely soft paper and ragged edges where someone has cut the pages with a paper knife ⦠He must have given it to her ⦠to my mother. It has Helen ⦠that was her name.â
The nod of his head could have meant anything or nothing. She wasnât watching him, though; her eyes were scrutinising the black looped writing on the fly leaf of the book.
â ⦠murmur a little sadly how Love fled, And paced upon the mountains overhead, And hid his face amid a crown of stars.â
Silence.
âI donât really know what it means.â
Silence.
âItâs nice though ⦠good. âHelen,â it says then âfrom Robert.â So you see.â
âYes, I see,â he said gently. âAnd I assure you it was not I who wrote those words.â
âOh well.â She spoke with resignation in her voice.
âIt shouldnât be so important, you know.â
He bent down and ground out the remains of his cigarette on the sole of his shoe. He held the butt in the hollow of his hand like you might hold a tiny dead animal.
âWhen you are young, there is today and tomorrow. A lot of tomorrows. Itâs only when you get to my age that the past begins to play a part in your life. Uninvited. Willy nilly.â
âIâd just like to know what is inside me. What sort of a person I might expect to turn out to be.â
âThatâs rubbish, child.â
âSurely ingredients must be important?â
âIrrelevant. We can do nothing about them but forget them and get on with the job of maturing, exploring and expanding our faculties.â
âIs that what youâve done? I mean, are doing?â
He looked down at the butt in his hand.
âJust throw it
Gil Brewer
Raye Morgan
Rain Oxford
Christopher Smith
Cleo Peitsche
Antara Mann
Toria Lyons
Mairead Tuohy Duffy
Hilary Norman
Patricia Highsmith