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lane.
Nobody was looking. I ran and I crept and got through the laurels, and I went down the hill, pushing through the brambles and the nettle patches that had sprung up since the last time I went that way.
Ursula Monkton was waiting for me at the bottom of the hill, just in front of the rusting metal fence. There was no way she could have got there without me seeing her, but she was there. She folded her arms and looked at me, and her grey and pink dress flapped in a gust of wind.
‘I believe I said that you were not to leave the property.’
‘I’m not,’ I told her, with a cockiness I knew I did not feel, not even a little. ‘I’m still on the property. I’m just exploring.’
‘You’re sneaking around,’ she said.
I said nothing.
‘I think you should be in your bedroom, where I can keep an eye on you. It’s time for your nap.’
I was too old for naps, but I knew that I was too young to argue, or to win the argument if I did.
‘Okay,’ I said.
‘Don’t say “okay”,’ she said. ‘Say “Yes, Miss Monkton”. Or “ma’am”. Say “Yes, ma’am”.’ She looked down at me with her blue-grey eyes, which put me in mind of holes rotted in canvas, and which did not look pretty at that moment.
I said, ‘Yes, ma’am,’ and hated myself for saying it.
We walked together up the hill.
‘Your parents can no longer afford this place,’ said Ursula Monkton. ‘And they can’t afford to keep it up. Soon enough they’ll see that the way to solve their financial problems is to sell this house and its gardens to property developers. Then all of
this
–’ and
this
was the tangle of brambles, the unkempt world behind the lawn – ‘will become a dozen identical houses and gardens. And if you are lucky, you’ll get to live in one. And if not, you will just envy the people who do. Will you like that?’
I loved the house, and the garden. I loved the rambling shabbiness of it. I loved that place as if it was a part of me, and perhaps, in some ways, it was.
‘Who are you?’ I asked.
‘Ursula Monkton. I’m your housekeeper.’
I said, ‘Who are you really? Why are you giving people money?’
‘Everybody wants money,’ she said, as if it were self-evident. ‘It makes them happy. It will make you happy, if you let it.’ We had come out by the heap of grass clippings, behind the circle of green grass that we called the fairy ring: sometimes, when the weather was wet, it filled with vivid yellow toadstools.
‘Now,’ she said. ‘Go to your room.’
I ran from her – ran as fast as I could, across the fairy ring, up the lawn, past the rose bushes, past the coal shed and into the house.
Ursula Monkton was standing just inside the back door of the house to welcome me in, although she could not have got past me. I would have seen. Her hair was perfect, and her lipstick seemed freshly applied.
‘I’ve been inside you,’ she said. ‘So a word to the wise. If you tell anybody anything, they won’t believe you. And because I’ve been inside you, I’ll know. And I can make it so you never say anything I don’t want you to say to anybody, not ever again.’
I went upstairs to the bedroom, and I lay on my bed. The place on the sole of my foot where the worm had been throbbed and ached, and now my chest hurt too. I went away in my head, into a book. That was where I went whenever real life was too hard or too inflexible. I pulled down a handful of my mother’s old books, from when she was a girl, and I read about schoolgirls having adventures in the 1930s and 1940s. Mostly they were up against smugglers or spies or fifth columnists, whatever they were, and the girls were always brave and they always knew exactly what to do. I was not brave and I had no idea what to do.
I had never felt so alone.
I wondered if the Hempstocks were on the telephone. It seemed unlikely, but not impossible – perhaps it had been Mrs Hempstock who had reported the abandoned Mini to the police in the first
Nobody was looking. I ran and I crept and got through the laurels, and I went down the hill, pushing through the brambles and the nettle patches that had sprung up since the last time I went that way.
Ursula Monkton was waiting for me at the bottom of the hill, just in front of the rusting metal fence. There was no way she could have got there without me seeing her, but she was there. She folded her arms and looked at me, and her grey and pink dress flapped in a gust of wind.
‘I believe I said that you were not to leave the property.’
‘I’m not,’ I told her, with a cockiness I knew I did not feel, not even a little. ‘I’m still on the property. I’m just exploring.’
‘You’re sneaking around,’ she said.
I said nothing.
‘I think you should be in your bedroom, where I can keep an eye on you. It’s time for your nap.’
I was too old for naps, but I knew that I was too young to argue, or to win the argument if I did.
‘Okay,’ I said.
‘Don’t say “okay”,’ she said. ‘Say “Yes, Miss Monkton”. Or “ma’am”. Say “Yes, ma’am”.’ She looked down at me with her blue-grey eyes, which put me in mind of holes rotted in canvas, and which did not look pretty at that moment.
I said, ‘Yes, ma’am,’ and hated myself for saying it.
We walked together up the hill.
‘Your parents can no longer afford this place,’ said Ursula Monkton. ‘And they can’t afford to keep it up. Soon enough they’ll see that the way to solve their financial problems is to sell this house and its gardens to property developers. Then all of
this
–’ and
this
was the tangle of brambles, the unkempt world behind the lawn – ‘will become a dozen identical houses and gardens. And if you are lucky, you’ll get to live in one. And if not, you will just envy the people who do. Will you like that?’
I loved the house, and the garden. I loved the rambling shabbiness of it. I loved that place as if it was a part of me, and perhaps, in some ways, it was.
‘Who are you?’ I asked.
‘Ursula Monkton. I’m your housekeeper.’
I said, ‘Who are you really? Why are you giving people money?’
‘Everybody wants money,’ she said, as if it were self-evident. ‘It makes them happy. It will make you happy, if you let it.’ We had come out by the heap of grass clippings, behind the circle of green grass that we called the fairy ring: sometimes, when the weather was wet, it filled with vivid yellow toadstools.
‘Now,’ she said. ‘Go to your room.’
I ran from her – ran as fast as I could, across the fairy ring, up the lawn, past the rose bushes, past the coal shed and into the house.
Ursula Monkton was standing just inside the back door of the house to welcome me in, although she could not have got past me. I would have seen. Her hair was perfect, and her lipstick seemed freshly applied.
‘I’ve been inside you,’ she said. ‘So a word to the wise. If you tell anybody anything, they won’t believe you. And because I’ve been inside you, I’ll know. And I can make it so you never say anything I don’t want you to say to anybody, not ever again.’
I went upstairs to the bedroom, and I lay on my bed. The place on the sole of my foot where the worm had been throbbed and ached, and now my chest hurt too. I went away in my head, into a book. That was where I went whenever real life was too hard or too inflexible. I pulled down a handful of my mother’s old books, from when she was a girl, and I read about schoolgirls having adventures in the 1930s and 1940s. Mostly they were up against smugglers or spies or fifth columnists, whatever they were, and the girls were always brave and they always knew exactly what to do. I was not brave and I had no idea what to do.
I had never felt so alone.
I wondered if the Hempstocks were on the telephone. It seemed unlikely, but not impossible – perhaps it had been Mrs Hempstock who had reported the abandoned Mini to the police in the first
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