the world you neededâlike money or anything like thatâI could get it. I could do anything.â
âI know it. I know that.â He put his hand in his pocket and brought out five dollars. âSophie, the night Papa started off on the train he sent me his gold watch. Yesterday I sold it to Mr. Carey for forty dollars. I gave thirty dollars to Mama, and I saved five dollars for myself and five dollars for you. I donât think Mamaâs thinking very clear about money these days. You do the shopping, so you keep that five dollars secret until sometime you may need it.â
At the same time and without an additional word he gave her his greatest treasureâthree Kangaheela arrowheads of green quartz, of chrysoprase.
âWell, I better get started.â
âRoger, is Papa going to write us?â
âThatâs what I keep thinking about. I donât see how he can without getting us into more trouble, and himself too. You know heâs not a citizen any more. After a whileâmaybe after yearsâheâll find a way. I think itâs best just not to think about him for a while. What weâve got to do is live, thatâs all.â
Sophia nodded, then whispered, âRoger, what are you going to do? I mean: be?â Her question meant what kind of great man was he to be and Roger knew it.
âI donât know yet, Sophie.â He looked at her with a faint smile and nodded.
He did not kiss her. He took her elbows in his hands and pressed them hard. âNow you go in the house and find some way of keeping Mama out of the kitchen while I pick up my coat and go out by the chicken run.â
âRoger, Iâm sorry. Roger, Iâm sorry, but youâve got to say goodbye to Mama. Youâre the only man weâve got in the house now.â
Roger swallowed and squared his shoulders. âAll right, Sophie, I will.â
âSheâs in the sitting room sewing, like it was evening.â
Roger went up the stairs the back way, pretending that he had forgotten something. He descended into the front hall and entered the sitting room.
âWell, Mama, Iâd better be going.â
His mother rose uncertainly. She knew how heâand all Ashleysâhated to be kissed, hated birthdays and Christmas, and all occasions that strove to bring the unspoken to the surface. Her shortness of breath returned. Her words were barely audible. Beata Kellerman of Hoboken, New Jersey, reverted to the language of her childhood.
âGott behüte dich, mein Sohn!â
âGoodbye, Mama!â
He left the house. For the first and only time in her life, Beata Ashley fainted.
Something had hovered unspoken behind the conversation between Sophia and her brother on the croquet court.
People who couldnât pay their taxes went to the poorhouse. The poorhouse at Goshen, fourteen miles from Coaltown, hung like a great black cloud over the lives of many in Kangaheela and Grimble counties. To go to jail was far less shameful than to go to Goshen. Yet the guests at Goshen enjoyed amenities hitherto unknown to them. The meals were regular and nourishing. The sheets on the beds were changed twice a month. The view from the great verandahs was uplifting. There was no coal dust in the air. The women were set to sewing for the stateâs hospitals, the men worked in the dairy and vegetable gardens and in winter made furniture. It is true that there was a persistent smell of cabbage in the corridors, but the smell of cabbage is not repellent to those who have spent a lifetime in indigence. Some congenial hours might have been arrived at in Goshen, but there were no smiles and no kindness; the burden of shame was too crushing. The institution was a limbo five days a week; on visitorsâ days it was hell. âAre you all right, Grandma?â âDo they make you comfortable, Uncle Joe?â We are enchained and we enchain one another. To go to Goshen meant that your
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