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for you to have mercy on me, because if I have to spend the rest of my life never having told you the truth, it will be pure torture. I know that’s selfish of me, but I think you need this too. I know you care for me the way I care for you. I know that you feel this connection between us.
    Please, give me one more chance.  

    Blue  

    The impact of the e-mail was not what I expected. I thought I might be angry, or even sad. Instead, I felt relief. Relief that Blue still cared. I knew I shouldn’t be swayed so easily, but it warmed my heart to think that he hadn’t given up on me—that he wouldn’t.
    That, however, did not mean that I was willing to forgive him. My fingers ached to type a message back, but I refused to do it.
    I wanted to take some time to think things through. I wanted to go on my dates and discover how I felt around other men. Blue had made me wait; now I was going to do the same to him.

    To distract myself from thinking about Blue, I started chatting back and forth with Spence, whom I had a date with the next day. He was very responsive.  

    Can we talk on the phone?  

    I wasn’t sure how to answer that. I figured it couldn’t hurt to give him my number if we planned on meeting the next day. I sent him the number in response.
    A minute later my phone began to ring. My heart jumped but I didn’t have time to be nervous.  
    “Hello?”  
    “Samantha?”  
    “Yes, is this Spence?”  
    “Yes. Wow, what a beautiful voice.”  
    “Oh, thanks.” I felt my face getting warm.
    We weren’t even in the same room and he was already getting under my skin. I’d never thought about how my voice sounded.  
    “About tomorrow—I had some ideas. What do you think about food carts?”  
    “Uh—some of the food can be great.”  
    “So you wouldn’t care if we ate at one?”  
    “As long as it’s one you’ve been to before.” I cringed at the idea of eating at some side-of-the-road roach coach. The food carts I’d eaten at in the past were all highly recommended.  
    “It’s my favorite place.”  
    “Okay, I’m up for trying it.” I smiled. The last thing I wanted to be was picky. Sure, it wasn’t what I’d expected, but that didn’t mean that it couldn’t be great.
    “You don’t care that it’s not a sit-down place?”  
    “Not at all. If that’s what you like, let’s give it a shot.”  
    It was an unusual way to have a first date but I was determined to be as open to new ideas as I could be. Spence sounded like a passionate person and he sparked my curiosity. It was nice that he wanted to share one of his favorite places with me.  
    “Great. It’s also right next to a stone sculpture museum that I think you will enjoy. So around eleven?”  
    “Perfect.”  
    “I’m looking forward to it.”  
    “Me too.”
    I hung up the phone. A glimmer of excitement caused my heart to flutter. Dating was fun. It used to be something that I dreaded because I was so insecure about how I looked, what he might think of me, and whether I might embarrass myself. But now it was more like an opportunity to explore.
    With each new date I accepted, I felt my comfort zone growing wider and wider. The date actually sounded like it would be a lot of fun. I could wear casual clothes and I’d get some culture along the way—not to mention that Spence looked downright gorgeous in the pictures I’d seen. He had loose curls, olive skin, and eyes that were quite possibly the largest I’d ever seen. I couldn’t wait to get my chance to look into them.
    I did feel a little guilty because my date with Ben had gone well. But we weren’t exclusive by any means, and I wasn’t ready to simply pick a man and continue dating.
    I wanted to fall in love, but if that wasn’t possible, I was going to explore my options.  
    As I returned to work on my book I thought of the e-mail that Blue had sent. It was hanging out there in cyberspace waiting for a response. It left me unsettled to think