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you, so don’t feel that way… I need to go and draw or something. Reconnect-to-Becca kind of deal.”
He nods his head and I know he understands this more than anyone. Sometimes I just need to be alone and work through it on my own. Jake has always understood that. I gather my things and head for the door. “Where are you going though, Becca? Remember it might not be safe out there for you.” I take a deep breath and try to remember that there is still this new threat that someone was after me.
“I’ll be careful I promise. Jacob…”
“Yeah, Becca?” Jake responds.
“I could never regret meeting you.” I feel like I’ve just said more than what I actually should have and I hope that he understands that’s all I have right now.
“Me either, baby. Where are you going?”
“Solitude.” I knew as soon as I said it that Jake would assume this was about Keegan. That place had become my place to go think and draw. I look to Jake and the hurt in his eyes is crippling. He must be thinking that because this was a place Keegan and I shared, that I’m going to think about Keegan. Which is true but I’m going there because of Jake too. The longer my heart takes with all this the more people are going to get hurt. The biggest question is: who do I love? The answer is the problem.
I love them both.
Chapter Eleven
Leaving Jake like that was not just difficult, it was unbearable. But I couldn’t deal. Old Becca came out and I ran. I’m trying not to do that but it’s a habit I’m fighting everyday not to keep. Sitting here in my solitude brings me into a peaceful place in the utter chaos that has become my life. When shit gets hard, Becca flakes and it’s fight or flight. Let’s just say I rarely pick a fight. Being here around nature makes my life melt away. I can breathe and actually form thoughts. Jake is awake and doing well, so he will be getting released soon. Keegan, well, he doesn’t remember but I will always remember for the both of us. Maybe it’s a blessing for him. He doesn’t have to remember all the horrible sides of our relationship. He can move on and be happy. What about you, Becca? Well, I honestly don’t know. I love Jake, but I still love Keegan. I feel like I’m abandoning him. My brother as much as told me this and he is right. No matter the cost to my heart and pride, I will still be his friend if that’s what Keegan needs.
It’s starting to get late now. It’s been dark for hours, but leaving this place is like going out into a world I don’t know anymore and makes me want to just stay put. Jake will be worrying though and Alec, well, he doesn’t know of the threat. I am freezing so I decide to rush off to the dorm and shower. When I’m heading back to my dorm, I see the door is slightly open. My heart drops and I look around frantically th en scold myself. I probably just left it open. I peek in and no one is there. I walk to my dresser and pick out a pair of jeans, grabbing my Lakehead sweater. I go to grab my phone that is charging by my bed and I stop. I look at the pillow, afraid to touch it. In front of me, just resting on my pillow, is a single black rose. Attached to it is a card and my fingers graze it.
“Soon.”
I can’t hold the emotions in and they come bursting out of me. I drag myself away from the bed and find the corner of the room. I had grabbed my phone on the way to the corner and already was dialing. “Hello.” His voice comes to me, and then I realize I’ve made a mistake. “Bec, Are you there?” I have stopped correcting him because it doesn’t matter anymore. I want to hang up but that would be childish.
“Sorry , Keegan, I shouldn’t have called. I will call Alec.” I can’t hold the sobbing back and he must hear it.
“Bec , where are you? What happened?”
I am hyperventilating from the panic of hearing Keegan and the item on my pillow. I try to pull in my emotions and steady my voice. “I’m not your
He nods his head and I know he understands this more than anyone. Sometimes I just need to be alone and work through it on my own. Jake has always understood that. I gather my things and head for the door. “Where are you going though, Becca? Remember it might not be safe out there for you.” I take a deep breath and try to remember that there is still this new threat that someone was after me.
“I’ll be careful I promise. Jacob…”
“Yeah, Becca?” Jake responds.
“I could never regret meeting you.” I feel like I’ve just said more than what I actually should have and I hope that he understands that’s all I have right now.
“Me either, baby. Where are you going?”
“Solitude.” I knew as soon as I said it that Jake would assume this was about Keegan. That place had become my place to go think and draw. I look to Jake and the hurt in his eyes is crippling. He must be thinking that because this was a place Keegan and I shared, that I’m going to think about Keegan. Which is true but I’m going there because of Jake too. The longer my heart takes with all this the more people are going to get hurt. The biggest question is: who do I love? The answer is the problem.
I love them both.
Chapter Eleven
Leaving Jake like that was not just difficult, it was unbearable. But I couldn’t deal. Old Becca came out and I ran. I’m trying not to do that but it’s a habit I’m fighting everyday not to keep. Sitting here in my solitude brings me into a peaceful place in the utter chaos that has become my life. When shit gets hard, Becca flakes and it’s fight or flight. Let’s just say I rarely pick a fight. Being here around nature makes my life melt away. I can breathe and actually form thoughts. Jake is awake and doing well, so he will be getting released soon. Keegan, well, he doesn’t remember but I will always remember for the both of us. Maybe it’s a blessing for him. He doesn’t have to remember all the horrible sides of our relationship. He can move on and be happy. What about you, Becca? Well, I honestly don’t know. I love Jake, but I still love Keegan. I feel like I’m abandoning him. My brother as much as told me this and he is right. No matter the cost to my heart and pride, I will still be his friend if that’s what Keegan needs.
It’s starting to get late now. It’s been dark for hours, but leaving this place is like going out into a world I don’t know anymore and makes me want to just stay put. Jake will be worrying though and Alec, well, he doesn’t know of the threat. I am freezing so I decide to rush off to the dorm and shower. When I’m heading back to my dorm, I see the door is slightly open. My heart drops and I look around frantically th en scold myself. I probably just left it open. I peek in and no one is there. I walk to my dresser and pick out a pair of jeans, grabbing my Lakehead sweater. I go to grab my phone that is charging by my bed and I stop. I look at the pillow, afraid to touch it. In front of me, just resting on my pillow, is a single black rose. Attached to it is a card and my fingers graze it.
“Soon.”
I can’t hold the emotions in and they come bursting out of me. I drag myself away from the bed and find the corner of the room. I had grabbed my phone on the way to the corner and already was dialing. “Hello.” His voice comes to me, and then I realize I’ve made a mistake. “Bec, Are you there?” I have stopped correcting him because it doesn’t matter anymore. I want to hang up but that would be childish.
“Sorry , Keegan, I shouldn’t have called. I will call Alec.” I can’t hold the sobbing back and he must hear it.
“Bec , where are you? What happened?”
I am hyperventilating from the panic of hearing Keegan and the item on my pillow. I try to pull in my emotions and steady my voice. “I’m not your
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