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heart starts to beat wildly. Today something is different between us and I can’t quite put my finger on it. Normally when we have sex it’s one sided, the connection isn’t firing at one hundred percent, but it’s firing on all cylinders tonight. Maybe it’s because we’ve gone longer than normal without having sex, maybe it’s just that we’re on the same page. Whatever it is we both need it more than we’re willing to admit to each other.
    I lie back on my bed as Macy takes the lead climbing between my legs. She kisses me until her mouth reaches the waistband of my boxers. My dick is straining hard against them and it jumps as she kisses the head. Too worked up to take this slow I lift my hips and start sliding my boxers off not even waiting for her to move.
    Macy leans forward a few inches and licks the bead of pre-cum before she lowers her mouth onto me. I groan as shivers rack my body. She sucks me in until I feel the back of her throat. My hips arch off the bed wanting to go deeper but Macy places a tiny hand on my stomach stopping me. Once she knows I got the message she slips her hand down and wraps it around the base of my dick. She pumps her hand up and down while bobbing her head at the same time working me over. My breathing is shallow and I’m close but I don’t want to come in her mouth. I’m just about to tell her to stop as she slows down and then swirls her tongue around the tip.
    “Baby,” I pant.
    Macy looks up at me with wide, innocent eyes. She’s surprised I’m ready so quickly but she doesn’t seem to care since she presses my dick forward and licks the underside causing my stomach muscles to clench. I can’t take it any longer, she done playing around. I reach down grabbing her under the arms pulling her toward me and then rolling us so I’m on top of her.
    “My turn.”
    I lean up but she grabs my wrist, “No, I just need you now.”
    Nodding because I understand what she means. We’re past the foreplay stage and she needs the connection.
    I reach over and pull out a condom from my bedside drawer. After quickly sliding the condom on I cover her small body with mine once more. I can’t wait another second to be inside her. I move my hands and position her hips so that my head is at her entrance. Pushing in very slowly my eyes squeeze shut from the tight, hot sensation. I wait just a few seconds giving her a chance to adjust before pulling almost all the way out and slamming hard back into her. Leaning down I rest my forehead against Macy’s rocking my body back and forth. Our eyes lock and the intense raw emotions are almost too much. Macy feels it too as tears pool in her eyes. This is the “us” from our first time. Nothing is tainting our lives in this moment. Just two people who love each other until the end.
    Tears slip down her cheeks and she reaches up to wipe them away. “Don’t cry, Macy.”
    Macy gives me a sad smile before wrapping her arms around my neck to pull me closer to her. I can feel her heart beating against my chest, that’s how close we are. She’s anchoring herself to me for however long this ride lasts. I’m not going to lie, I’m holding on just as hard too.
    Her body wracks with sobs and I almost stop but then her hips start meeting mine thrust for thrust. My body starts humming from the state of ecstasy she’s propelled me into and my tempo speeds up with hers. We’re feeding off of each other like we always do when things are good.
    “I love you, Landon.” Macy’s muffled voice breaks through my fog.
    Leaning up on my elbows I tell her what she needs to hear in this moment. “I love you, too, my shining star.”
    I shouldn’t have told her that but I do love Macy. I wish that I didn’t because I can’t ask her to live her life with me. I’ll just drag her down and she doesn’t deserve that. I’m too fucked up.
    Macy’s body stills and her eyes fix on mine for just a second before she’s clinching around me. The sensation does me