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wanted to call him Type A or OCD or anal. But after our fight, I didn’t think teasing him was the best avenue to take. “Smart move.”
    “You ready for work tomorrow?”
    I shrugged. “I have a few things to wrap up before the end of the week. And I have to go in Monday.”
    “You know I’m still mad at you for taking a day off.”
    “Yes. I am fully aware of that. And in the spirit of full disclosure, I just wanted to let you know that Travis left me a voicemail earlier.”
    “Oh?” he asked, returning his attention to his ties and avoiding my gaze.
    “He said that he didn’t send that email.”
    His attention turned back to me. “He didn’t?”
    I shook my head. “Apparently it was from someone trying to break up Travis and his new girlfriend.”
    The corners of Nick’s mouth tipped up. “Interesting.”
    “Quite.”
    “So our fight was for naught?”
    “Nick, I could have told you that before. You have nothing to worry about.” I stepped into the closet and wrapped my arms around him. “You never have to worry about my heart. It’s yours. Only yours. Forever.”
    His arms laced around me, too, and he breathed in deeply. “And mine belongs only to you. Forever.”
    “I know.” I rested my cheek on his chest and I heard his heartbeat quicken as I breathed in his scent, too. It was manly and sexy and all Nick. “Your heart is racing.”
    “Always does around you.”
    I pulled back and looked up at him. “That’s a beautiful thing to say.”
    “It’s true. My heart speeds up just when I think of you. Only you.”
    The next morning, I checked my email as soon as I got to work. In my lust-induced haze the night before, I had forgotten that Travis had told me he had sent me an email. I finally got around to reading it.
     
    Dear Julianne,
     
    First, let me explain something. I did not send that first reply. Please disregard it. Someone trying to sabotage what I have with Lindsay sent that to you, and it almost worked.
     
    Thank you for your email. I need you to understand that I am in a new relationship with someone who has become everything to me. I am sorry that you are confused and feeling scared, but I can’t be there for you to pick up the pieces. You are wearing a ring on your left hand from the man of your dreams. Go home to him, love him, enjoy him. Turn to him when you’re feeling lonely. Because I’ve turned to someone in my own loneliness, and she provided me comfort, hope, and happiness. She’s the answer to every question I’ve ever had. She is my light and my hope. I meant what I said when I told you that I had moved on. You will always be an important part of my life because of the history we share and because our families are close. But please understand this: It will take time before I’m ready to build our friendship back to what it once was. Thank you for everything you’ve given me. As much as it hurt, what happened between us prompted me to move to San Diego, and it set off a chain of events that led me to where I am now. I have no regrets. Regrets are a waste of time, anyway. I’m happier than I’ve ever been, and I hope that knowledge will help you to stop beating yourself up over what happened. Please give me time to gain some firm ground with Lindsay, because she needs to know that she’s my top priority. Maybe once that has happened, someday down the line, you and I could give our friendship another try.
     
    Travis
     
    Yet another interesting twist in my relationship with Travis. So I guess I didn’t have a choice to make, and I was glad. I had already chosen Nick, anyway, but this email from Travis gave me an out. I didn’t need to explain to him that I couldn’t be his friend anymore because the email said that he couldn’t be my friend right now anyway. And I still believed that someday we’d get back what we once had, back before he’d declared his feelings of love and we had just been the best of friends.
    People say that you can’t have a