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platonic relationship with someone of the opposite sex, and maybe that was true. I never thought it was, but then this whole crazy thing had happened. I wondered not for the first time how I could have been so blinded to the fact that Travis had serious feelings for me.
    Lucy stopped by my desk for a chat.
    “How are things with you and Jake?” I asked, trying to distract her before she could ask about me. My distraction technique was an epic fail.
    “Perfect. How did things go with Nick?”
    “Really good, actually.”
    “Did you tell him about the stick?”
    I shook my head.
    “Is that a secret you should really be keeping from the man you’re going to marry?”
    I shrugged. She was right, but it was hard to have my friend calling me out on it.
    She looked at me with concern. “Are you doing okay?”
    It felt good to talk to a girlfriend. Most of my relationship with Nick had been hidden from my best friends because we worked together, and I’d been through some of the hardest moments of my life with nowhere to turn. But now that Nick was working for BKG and our relationship was out in the open, I didn’t have to keep these huge secrets from my friends anymore.
    “Yeah. I’m doing alright.”
    Davidson walked by my cubicle. “Lunch?” she asked.
    I nodded, and I got back to work after the serious glare I received from him. Davidson was not happy that Nick went to work for a competing company, and he had said some very harsh words to both of us. In my opinion, he’d been extremely unprofessional, and I briefly considered taking my accounts with me to BKG. But I had signed a contract, and it was illegal and immoral to do that even though Davidson certainly deserved it.
    It was just Lucy and me for lunch, and once our food arrived, the gossip began.
    “So tell me more about San Diego.”
    “He is with this new girl, and when I went to see him, he was chasing after her. I’ve never seen Travis chase after anything or anyone in my life.”
    “Except you.”
    I shook my head. “Even me. He never chased me. He told me once how he felt, and then it was me going back and forth. He doesn’t chase, Luce.”
    “So she’s something special?”
    “I guess.”
    “Did you meet her?”
    “Briefly. She walked in and saw Trav and me hugging. He was comforting me after I told him how Nick and I were fighting because I went to San Diego. But I had to know what he was thinking. He hung up on me after I’d told him we were engaged, and he wouldn’t answer my calls or my texts. I was worried. Anyway so she walked in on us hugging and bolted, and Trav ran after her. When he came back, he was carrying her in his arms.”
    “Like over the threshold?”
    “Exactly. It was totally awkward and he introduced her and she shook my hand while he held her.”
    “Weird.”
    “She seemed possessive. Jealous.”
    “In her defense, she was meeting the girl Travis has loved for his entire life.”
    Lucy had a point. Lindsay had every right to be possessive and jealous when she saw me standing in Travis’s apartment, his arms around me. She couldn’t have known that he was just comforting me, and I couldn’t imagine what it looked like.
    Lucy broke into my thoughts. “He seemed happy?”
    “Totally.”
    “Then good for him.”
    “That’s how I felt, too. But I just feel so…” I glanced around the restaurant. “I don’t know. I feel lost without Travis in my life.”
    She put her hand over mine. “I told you, you’ve got other friends, Jules. Like me.”
    “I know. And I love you.” I squeezed her hand.
    “Love you back.”
    “He’s just always been there, you know? Like family, but sometimes even closer. You know how you sometimes want to keep certain things from your family?”
    “Like my sex life?” We both giggled.
    “Exactly. But I never kept anything from Travis, and I miss having him to lean on.”
    “I get that. Good friends are hard to come by.”
    I nodded. “Thanks, Lucy.”
    “For