that when I reach the number ten, I will open them and calmly go back to the task at hand. The first page is a total rave. My writing is a mess, the grammar and structure all over the place. It barely makes sense. Finch wouldnât mark it more than twelve out of twenty. Iâd join the losers in the class. I imagine explaining to Finch why my work is so poor. As if sheâd buy it. Who would? But tonight the task at hand is to put the mess in order. I go to the list and read every word twice just to be sure. I cross out what Iâve done and if something needs following up I mark it with an asterisk. These points will be transferred and numbered on a brand new to-do list. I want to curl into a ball and will myself to disappear. But tonight is a âdoingâ night, not one for self-pity. On a fresh white page, I write in and underline the two most important things to remember, rewrite the points with an asterisk and start to add new ones, careful not to be too specific this time. TO-DO LIST Google for info Check newspapers etc Get a padlock Look into renewing firearms licence â book safety course, call rifle club re rejoining and course availability Visit Pigman re job Step one is simple. Itâs straight to YouTube. I have to see how this mother works. The AK-47 used to be one of my main weapons of choice. I especially liked using it when I played Kaos with Vigilanteboy. The AK-47 had a slower rate of fire which helped me focus and get my head sorted while Vigilanteboy ran around screaming like a girl with a broken fingernail. I wonder what happened to him. He just disappeared from all the lists. For a while I searched and asked around the forums but no one knew where he was. Now I wish Iâd tried harder. Vigilanteboy knew about AK-47s â real ones, I mean. Once I was complaining about their recoil when hip-firing and he said âDude, you oughta try one in real life. Those things kick like a pregnant mare with a hangover.â If I found Vigilanteboy, Iâd ask him to tell me everything he knows. The YouTube listings go for pages. My first choice is a comparative study with the AK-47 and other assault rifles but it makes no sense to me. So I check out the hot Russian chicks demonstrating how the AK-47 works but I canât keep focused on what theyâre saying in their sexy Russian accents. I watch an interesting doco on Kalashnikov himself. Then I hit a series of eight-second videos showing how fast the AK-47 can reload. Itâs amazing. I watch it again and again. Finally I find what the novice like me needs: âBasics of the AK-47â. Itâs a nice little step-by-step educational video. The bloke talking even looks a bit like Pascoe, which only makes it all the more ironic. Heâs a moron too. âSafety is important when handling any rifle and takes no time at all. Always check the rifle is clear. When handling the rifle, ensure the muzzle is pointed in a safe direction.â I finish the sentence, âunless of course youâre in the company of a traitor, then ensure the muzzle is pointed directly at the balls.â
I doze a bit with my head on the desk but at 7 am the alarm on my mobile rings and itâs time to implement step four of the plan. Iâm straight on the phone to the Strathven Shootersâ Club. If the Pigman gives me a job, Iâll have to show him a current firearms licence. Iâm not expecting anyone to pick up at the club. All I want is their opening hours. Receiving a call on their answering machine at 7 am shouldnât arouse any suspicion. Then I can fall into bed knowing that one thing on the list has been achieved. âStrathven Shootersâ Club, John Curlewis speaking.â The cheery voice of Mr Curlewis finds me off guard and instead of hanging up Iâm umming and ahhing like a moron. âYes. Hello?â âYes, um,â I say. âI just wanted some information.â âFire