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this. She likes the divorce.” A lie but I felt cornered. “I like the divorce. Mom and I are still friends.”
After my declaration all I did was talk. Hannah has completely checked out of the conversation. She was distraught. The idea that I would be able to calm her down was just stupid. I took Hannah home and told my boys as much as they could understand, which wasn’t much.
This hadn’t actually turned out the way I hoped. But what did I expect?
CHAPTER 7
JACK
The New Year rang in and I hadn’t completely left Kari’s house. Kari had to at least be three or four months pregnant at this point. I expected to be served with papers to vacate her property but the papers never came. Things like this made me hold out some perverse form of hope.
I couldn’t believe I was here at this stage of my life. All the professional success I achieved and I am still a weak boy who always falls for the wrong girl. Losing Kari has been severely painful for me, more painful then my divorce from Diana.
I married Diana because that’s what I was supposed to do. I proposed to Kari because that’s what I wanted to do.
I am man enough to admit that I was just attracted to her at first. I wanted to try a black girl, like a wanted to try an Asian girl. I crossed the Asian girl off the list . Then there was Kari and she was so hot. I couldn’t help myself.
I’m not sure if I would remove Kari from my life just to squash this nagging overbearing pain. I don’t know why it hurts so badly. I don’t know why I’m so disoriented. Why are my feelings for her so deadly, so deep, so deafening?
Mason’s stamp of approval only fuel ed my desire for her that day at the little league ballpark. He had peaked my curiosity even further. I fantasied about the taste of Kari’s cunt. I become somewhat obsessed with having a piece. I should have just taken a piece and not the whole enchilada.
I was focused on tasting her, palming her round ass and shooting my cum down her throat. I was fixated on fucking my first black girl and she was that girl. But like an idiot I fell in love with her. I don’t even know how it happened.
Everything between us just moved so fast at this rapid pace. She never said no to me and I liked that about her. I enjoyed that she let me be in control. Control was what my marriage to Diana lacked. There was no sense of balance. She was always running the show. Diana was bossy and overbearing. I hated that about her and I hated our one-sided relationship.
Kari just became this perfect woman in my eyes. She appeared as if she cared about my work, my life, my thoughts and me. Being with her was easy and calming after the drama that was that bitch on wheels Diana.
Kari let me be me. I didn’t have to apologize for my extravagance , my arrogance or my eccentricities. She was never in competition with me. She was my best cheerleader. Kari impressed me with her personality not her collection of shoes and designer handbags. Her style was her own and she never apologized for being who and how she was.
Kari wasn’t plastic or self-absorbed. She didn’t get up in the morning and rush to put make-up on. Kari didn’t sleep in make-up like some of the women I dated after Diana and I separated. As hard as I tried I couldn’t find anything wrong with her…at first.
Then there was Mason. I’m still questioning whether or not I truly believed they were done. I’m not an idiot. I had to know that there was still something between them.
I honestly thought that I was a better man, a better catch, and an all around better human being. I didn’t take that dirtball construction worker as real competition. What woman picks him over me?
The truth is I really miss Kari. I still love this woman. I feel like I may never get over her. She has hurt me in a way I never thought was possible. I thought I was the one in control when she was really controlling me, my feelings, my heart.
I was making her accept
After my declaration all I did was talk. Hannah has completely checked out of the conversation. She was distraught. The idea that I would be able to calm her down was just stupid. I took Hannah home and told my boys as much as they could understand, which wasn’t much.
This hadn’t actually turned out the way I hoped. But what did I expect?
CHAPTER 7
JACK
The New Year rang in and I hadn’t completely left Kari’s house. Kari had to at least be three or four months pregnant at this point. I expected to be served with papers to vacate her property but the papers never came. Things like this made me hold out some perverse form of hope.
I couldn’t believe I was here at this stage of my life. All the professional success I achieved and I am still a weak boy who always falls for the wrong girl. Losing Kari has been severely painful for me, more painful then my divorce from Diana.
I married Diana because that’s what I was supposed to do. I proposed to Kari because that’s what I wanted to do.
I am man enough to admit that I was just attracted to her at first. I wanted to try a black girl, like a wanted to try an Asian girl. I crossed the Asian girl off the list . Then there was Kari and she was so hot. I couldn’t help myself.
I’m not sure if I would remove Kari from my life just to squash this nagging overbearing pain. I don’t know why it hurts so badly. I don’t know why I’m so disoriented. Why are my feelings for her so deadly, so deep, so deafening?
Mason’s stamp of approval only fuel ed my desire for her that day at the little league ballpark. He had peaked my curiosity even further. I fantasied about the taste of Kari’s cunt. I become somewhat obsessed with having a piece. I should have just taken a piece and not the whole enchilada.
I was focused on tasting her, palming her round ass and shooting my cum down her throat. I was fixated on fucking my first black girl and she was that girl. But like an idiot I fell in love with her. I don’t even know how it happened.
Everything between us just moved so fast at this rapid pace. She never said no to me and I liked that about her. I enjoyed that she let me be in control. Control was what my marriage to Diana lacked. There was no sense of balance. She was always running the show. Diana was bossy and overbearing. I hated that about her and I hated our one-sided relationship.
Kari just became this perfect woman in my eyes. She appeared as if she cared about my work, my life, my thoughts and me. Being with her was easy and calming after the drama that was that bitch on wheels Diana.
Kari let me be me. I didn’t have to apologize for my extravagance , my arrogance or my eccentricities. She was never in competition with me. She was my best cheerleader. Kari impressed me with her personality not her collection of shoes and designer handbags. Her style was her own and she never apologized for being who and how she was.
Kari wasn’t plastic or self-absorbed. She didn’t get up in the morning and rush to put make-up on. Kari didn’t sleep in make-up like some of the women I dated after Diana and I separated. As hard as I tried I couldn’t find anything wrong with her…at first.
Then there was Mason. I’m still questioning whether or not I truly believed they were done. I’m not an idiot. I had to know that there was still something between them.
I honestly thought that I was a better man, a better catch, and an all around better human being. I didn’t take that dirtball construction worker as real competition. What woman picks him over me?
The truth is I really miss Kari. I still love this woman. I feel like I may never get over her. She has hurt me in a way I never thought was possible. I thought I was the one in control when she was really controlling me, my feelings, my heart.
I was making her accept
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