depth, no sides to grasp onto, or a horizon from which to take a bearing. It was all encompassing, mind-wrenching agony that could not be discarded or forgotten and as her sad and lonely journey progressed Julia’s mind began its inevitable change. Like the caterpillars she had watched changing to moths in the olive groves Julia spun a protective cocoon of thoughts in which she hid from the endless sorrow of living. Things started to become clearer when seen from within her pain-filled isolation, the world was a bad place and all anyone could expect to do was survive. Her conclusion took its direction from all of the experiences that made up her pathetic life and based on that information the inescapable course of action was to build a wall around her mind and never let anyone in ever again. Bathing her every day for a seemingly endless first six months of the war Cecilia could see that Julia was facing a bigger demon than unrequited love, she simply had no confidence or belief in herself. Cecilia like everyone else understood that people who looked pleasing to the eye had a much easier time than plain people but Julia possessed none of the certainty that a girl with great beauty usually had. Never really knowing quite what effect her therapy was having Cecilia instinctively lavished love and affection on the spent girl by repeating over and over how beautiful and intelligent she was. Without understanding the meaning of Cecilia’s words the rhythmic voice was always there like a distant star that could be seen from within Julia’s endless turmoil. However far she drifted off course during that journey of the mind this star was always there to give her a connection with reality and Julia owed her sanity to this single act of commonsense. At first she did not understand the changes caused by something positive moving freely through her unconscious thoughts because her crushed mind found them alien, even a little frightening but as time went by she began to enjoy the warm emotions which slowly brought her back from a dark oblivion. Much relieved Cecilia encouraged Julia to talk about her troubles and while crying often the latter released some of her deeply held pain. It was ridiculous to imagine that a thought converted into speech then returned to her memory could be any different but the reality was that these uncomfortable thoughts became easier for Julia to bear. In her heart she believed it to be silly nonsense, all in her imagination but she could not deny that she felt stronger every time she transformed a childhood hurt from the secrecy of her mind into words. For the latter half of the first year of the war and all of the second Cecilia and Julia spent each morning following the news of the fighting and during this time they became inseparable. Other than self preservation the topic of war held no fascination for Cecilia but it did seem to aid Julia’s recovery so she persevered. It somehow gave Julia’s fragile mind something constant to focus upon, and Cecilia perceived correctly that following a specific subject gave Julia’s troubled mind a focal point from which to grow. As a by-product of this mental exercise Julia became an expert on the subject of war and while reading about every intricate strategy of every battle she learned about the Italian provinces where the major conflicts had taken place. Julia had even marked them on one of Sulla’s old military maps which Cecilia hung on the kitchen wall at the beginning of the hostilities, she also followed the Senatorial reports which were posted around the city each day and Julia felt intimately involved with every twist and turn of the armies of Marius in the north and Sulla in the south. Like everyone in Rome Julia cried when the news of Marius’ stroke reached the city but unlike everyone else she did not switch her adoration to Sulla, a strange state of affairs when one considers that he was her sole benefactor. By the