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myself if Nathan so much as speaks to me.
    “Calm
down, Alex. We will talk later.” I walk away as Nathan reaches the table.
    As
I am walking away from her, Evelyn comes up behind me wrapping her arms around
my waist. I turn to her, wishing that I could feel more for her – for anyone
other than Alex.  She leads me to the dance floor.  A sad love song
is playing, and I pull her neatly into my arms.  She looks up at me,
smiles and kisses me deeply on my lips, and I kiss her back.
    When
I look back towards the table Nathan and Alex are no longer there.  My
eyes sweep the room and I see them leaving the dance hand in hand.  I
almost run after her. But the realization that I am making the right decision
stops me in my tracks.

Chapter
11
    Alex
    “I’m
happy that you asked to leave early, Lex.” I hear Nathan saying as he is
driving out of the high school parking lot. “I have a surprise for you.”
    I
don’t answer, tears threatening to spill unto my cheeks.  I was angry at
myself.  Angry at Kade.   We were supposed to
be best friends.  He promised that he would never leave me.  That
nothing could ever come between us. I couldn’t even imagine not seeing him
every day.
    Nathan
leans over and takes my hand as he drives, rubbing his thumb softly over my
fingers.  I look over at him and I can see excitement in his eyes. He
continues driving and soon we turn into a driveway and I can see a tiny cabin
hidden by some large trees.  I recognize the cabin immediately. We had
been there once before.  It belonged to his cousin, James, who was away at
college.  His cousin was barely ever there.   I noted that
James’ car was absent from the driveway and I shiver as Nathan opens my car
door and a cool blast of wind washes over me. 
    “C’mon,”
he says softly, taking my hands and leading me into the house. 
    We
walk in and I am surprised to see red flower petals all over the floor. 
    “I
am so excited about our future, Lex,” I hear Nathan murmur as he wraps his arms
around me from behind.  He starts kissing my neck softly. I shudder.
    This
feels all wrong. He is kissing me too softly.  I wanted rough kisses – Kade’s kisses.  He turns me around to face him and I
stare up at him.  He is tall, but not tall enough.  He takes my hands
and places it on his shoulders, but his shoulders are not wide enough.  I
look up into his eyes but they are blue – not onyx.  When he bends down to
kiss me again I smell cologne, he smells nothing like cinnamon!  I step
away quickly. Nathan looks at me confused.
    “What’s
wrong?” he questions concern in his eyes.
    “You
don’t smell like cinnamon,” I reply. I close my eyes, and all I can see is
Kade.  What am I so afraid of?   The least I can do is give Kade
and I a chance. I can’t be afraid of my feelings any
longer.  I have to tell Kade how I feel.  I have to let him know that
I feel the same way that he does!  I almost run out of the house
immediately, but I stop when I see the hurt and confused look in Nathan’s eyes.
    “I’m so sorry Nathan,
but I can’t do this.  I should have been honest with you a long time ago.”
I hear myself saying as I put some distance between us.
    He stares at me
confused before going to sit down on a large couch.
    “You
are a great guy…” I continue as he lays his head in the palm of his hands, “but
my heart just isn’t here right now.”
    I
hear him sigh loudly as he lifts his head from his hands.  “You don’t need
to say anything else, Alex.  Your heart hasn’t been here for weeks
now.  I’ll get over this.” He rises from the couch walks towards me and
gives me a lingering kiss on my forehead.
    “Thank
you for being honest with me now.”  He continues pulling on his jacket.
    I
really didn’t deserve his understanding but I was grateful for it all the
same.  
    I
reach up and give him a kiss on his cheek.  He is really a great guy and
will make another girl very happy.  He asks me if I need