âBut I do love you,â he said desperately.
She gently thrust him away. âYou see,â she said. âTheyâve done it.â
âWhoâs done what?â
âOur parents. Theyâve schemed all this.â
âI donât think so. I am not even sure that my mother approves of you these days.â
Alice threw back her head and laughed heartily, so that her breath rose in the air like a cloud of steam. âI am not surprised to hear it and I think itâs good news anyway.â Companionably, she sought Simonâs arm under his cloak and began to steer him back to the house. âWe must get back,â she said. âItâs not that I donât like being here with you, nor am I worried about gossip. I donât care a fig about what people say, you know.â The old earnest look came back for a moment. âBut it is my party and I must put myself about a little. I know you will understand.â
Glumly, Simon nodded and they stepped carefully through the slushy snow back to the house.
The rest of the evening passed miserably for him as his new-found desire twisted into jealousy as Alice carried out her dance commitments with a succession of eligible and, it seemed to Simon, ever taller young men. His mother, too, fulfilled a full dance programme, elegantly sweeping around the floor with a mixture of old and young partners. Major Fonthill spent most of the evening sitting talking to old friends and comrades from the regiment, increasingly content with his cigars and brandies. Only once did he pass a comment to Simon, as the latter smiled gloomily on his way to replenish his glass: âDonât worry, my boy,â he said kindly, âyou wonât be away all that long.â
Simon was allowed one more dance with Alice, which he managed to ruin by holding her too tightly and, twice, stepping on her foot. They exchanged hardly a word this time and Simon thought that Alice smiled too often at every couple as they swirled by. When the time came to say goodbye in the early hours, she did not kiss him, merely letting her hand rest in his perhaps a moment too long for propriety as he bowed over it.
âWill you write?â he hissed.
âOf course. I always have. Donât worry. Good night, Simon.â
The Major and his wife were noticeably mellow as they sat back in the coach, much warmer now as the indulgences of the evening combined with the milder air of the thaw. The Majorâs eyes positively twinkled as, his arm entwined with that of his wife, he addressed his son opposite. âJolly good evening I think, my boy. Wouldnât you agree?â
âYes, Father. Quite pleasant.â
âYou didnât dance much, dear,â said Mrs Fonthill. âAnd you are not very good at it. Honestly, Simon, sometimes I despair of you. You canât ride and you canât dance. What can you do?â
âAh, Mother,â sighed Simon. âI wish I knew.â
The next morning Simon had just time to pen a quick message to Alice before Owen came to take him to the railway station.
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My dear Alice,
You may think me no end of a fool but I do love you, whether or not our parents have manoeuvred me (at least) into this position - and I am convinced that they have not. However, I quite understand your feelings and I do not consider either of us, of course, to be engaged.
Nevertheless, I see no reason why we cannot remain good friends, as you wish, with me continuing to love you.
The thought of you will sustain me in Africa.
Yours most sincerely.
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He read it through anxiously, decided that it sounded far too stilted, but sealed and dispatched it anyway. Time was running out and there were the goodbyes to be said.
Chapter 3
The cab rattled over the cobblestones of Southampton through dismal rain to the deep-water dockside, where Simon caught his first glimpse of the vessel that was to be his universe for the next few weeks. The SS
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