prom day!” I stare at her
sadly.
“What
is the matter Alexandria?” she questions, sitting beside me on my bed.
“Mom…”
I begin, “Kade…” I sniffle. “I don’t know what to do, Mom… suddenly the most
uncomplicated relationship in my life, is so complicated. He told me that
he loves me … that he is in love with me.”
“Do
you love him?” she asks softly.
“Yes,”
I say immediately.
“Are
you in love with him?”
I
hesitate. “I am afraid…” I confess. “Suppose we get together, and it
doesn’t work out? All of these years of friendship will be ruined.
We will never have our friendship back.”
“Honey,”
she says, rubbing my hair softly. “It is ok to be afraid. But you have to
trust him, and yourself. He loves you, and he has always taken care of
you. Do you really think that he would do anything to hurt you? I always
hoped that you and Kade would end up together…”
I
feel tears falling from my eyes and she wipes my cheeks.
“C’mon.
Today is a happy day. You’re going to be the most beautiful girl there
tonight.” She goes to my closet and pulls out my dress.
I
picked a crimson, satin, tight dress adorned with large crystals in the
back. I picked red, because Kade always tells me how much he loves the
color on me. I always imagined that we would go to prom together.
My
mom forces me to get up from my bed and practically shoves me in the shower.
I
go through the motions of getting ready for what was supposed to be one of the
happiest days of my life, but all I could do was think of Kade. His
kisses yesterday had aroused completely foreign emotions in me. I had never
felt that I could lose myself in a guy. I shudder thinking of the way his big body towered over mine as he moved in between my
very willing open legs. It was hot. Carnal.
I
feign happiness for my mother’s sake as she carts me to the salon. I do
my hair, nails and make up. My only request was for my lips to match my
dress.
While
at the salon, I hear my phone vibrating and I jump to get it, hoping that it is
Kade.
Nathan:
Hi Beautiful. I can’t wait to see you tonight. I planned something
special after… I love you.
I
gulp. Feeling guilty, I text back quickly.
Me:
Can’t wait to see you too. I lie.
The
day went by quickly and soon I am looking at myself in my full length mirror
trying to smile. The dress fits me snugly and curves perfectly into my
body. I turn slightly to examine the back, and the crystals sparkle as
they crisscross into a V down my back. I look pretty, but even I can see
the sadness in my eyes. I needed to make a decision. Kade told me
that he loved me. I thought that I would be ready – that it was what I
wanted but I didn’t realize that I would be so afraid of his love. I had
never taken relationships that seriously. I was young and having fun. But
with Kade, I knew that it would be different.
He
was intense, as was I. I had to make a decision, and I had to make it
fast.
I
hear Nathan’s truck pulling up and soon my mother is calling me from
downstairs.
I
take a deep breath and walk down to Nathan. He looks very handsome and
sports a crimson tie . My mother appropriately
embarrasses me by taking a million pictures and ooing and aaahing every few seconds. After a
very long fifteen minutes I kiss her goodbye and she waves at me from the
porch.
She
had been through so much, but still she smiles. I wave at her and she blow a kiss at me.
When
we finally get to the prom it is apparent that the decorating committee really
worked hard to make the prom a beautiful one this year. I can see crystal
beads hanging from the ceiling and multi colored lights flashing to the beat of
the music. Out of habit, my eyes automatically sweep the room looking for
Kade, but I don’t see him anywhere. I wonder silently if he is going to
come tonight. I would drive over to his house after prom, if he
sadly.
“What
is the matter Alexandria?” she questions, sitting beside me on my bed.
“Mom…”
I begin, “Kade…” I sniffle. “I don’t know what to do, Mom… suddenly the most
uncomplicated relationship in my life, is so complicated. He told me that
he loves me … that he is in love with me.”
“Do
you love him?” she asks softly.
“Yes,”
I say immediately.
“Are
you in love with him?”
I
hesitate. “I am afraid…” I confess. “Suppose we get together, and it
doesn’t work out? All of these years of friendship will be ruined.
We will never have our friendship back.”
“Honey,”
she says, rubbing my hair softly. “It is ok to be afraid. But you have to
trust him, and yourself. He loves you, and he has always taken care of
you. Do you really think that he would do anything to hurt you? I always
hoped that you and Kade would end up together…”
I
feel tears falling from my eyes and she wipes my cheeks.
“C’mon.
Today is a happy day. You’re going to be the most beautiful girl there
tonight.” She goes to my closet and pulls out my dress.
I
picked a crimson, satin, tight dress adorned with large crystals in the
back. I picked red, because Kade always tells me how much he loves the
color on me. I always imagined that we would go to prom together.
My
mom forces me to get up from my bed and practically shoves me in the shower.
I
go through the motions of getting ready for what was supposed to be one of the
happiest days of my life, but all I could do was think of Kade. His
kisses yesterday had aroused completely foreign emotions in me. I had never
felt that I could lose myself in a guy. I shudder thinking of the way his big body towered over mine as he moved in between my
very willing open legs. It was hot. Carnal.
I
feign happiness for my mother’s sake as she carts me to the salon. I do
my hair, nails and make up. My only request was for my lips to match my
dress.
While
at the salon, I hear my phone vibrating and I jump to get it, hoping that it is
Kade.
Nathan:
Hi Beautiful. I can’t wait to see you tonight. I planned something
special after… I love you.
I
gulp. Feeling guilty, I text back quickly.
Me:
Can’t wait to see you too. I lie.
The
day went by quickly and soon I am looking at myself in my full length mirror
trying to smile. The dress fits me snugly and curves perfectly into my
body. I turn slightly to examine the back, and the crystals sparkle as
they crisscross into a V down my back. I look pretty, but even I can see
the sadness in my eyes. I needed to make a decision. Kade told me
that he loved me. I thought that I would be ready – that it was what I
wanted but I didn’t realize that I would be so afraid of his love. I had
never taken relationships that seriously. I was young and having fun. But
with Kade, I knew that it would be different.
He
was intense, as was I. I had to make a decision, and I had to make it
fast.
I
hear Nathan’s truck pulling up and soon my mother is calling me from
downstairs.
I
take a deep breath and walk down to Nathan. He looks very handsome and
sports a crimson tie . My mother appropriately
embarrasses me by taking a million pictures and ooing and aaahing every few seconds. After a
very long fifteen minutes I kiss her goodbye and she waves at me from the
porch.
She
had been through so much, but still she smiles. I wave at her and she blow a kiss at me.
When
we finally get to the prom it is apparent that the decorating committee really
worked hard to make the prom a beautiful one this year. I can see crystal
beads hanging from the ceiling and multi colored lights flashing to the beat of
the music. Out of habit, my eyes automatically sweep the room looking for
Kade, but I don’t see him anywhere. I wonder silently if he is going to
come tonight. I would drive over to his house after prom, if he
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