good sport. âAnd nobody could tell you not to marry â¦â I caught myself. I didnât want to mention Tyeeshaâs disappearing-act father. Heâd hung around just long enough to see her graduate from kindergarten.
I was thoroughly confused. Iâd assumed that Sharonâs heterosexuality had been written in stone. I just couldnât understand how she could suddenly do such an about-face. I mean, I never saw any signs. I also felt abandoned. It was like my running buddy had run out on me.
âThat was a long time ago,â Sharon said. âI was desperate to have everything fit.â
âDidnât everything fit?â I asked. âNo pun intended, but I donât remember hearing any complaints.â I sped up to stay with the flow of traffic.
âYeah, things fit, so long as I didnât know any better.â
âSo, now you suddenly woke up and smelled the pussy, so to speak. Is that what youâre saying?â
âDee Dee, please, donât be crude. Remember, Tyeeshaâs still in the car.â
âIâm sorry,â I said, glancing into my rearview window. Tyeeshaâs eyebrows were raised almost to the roof of the car. âKeep those headphones securely over your ears,â I ordered.
âAcknowledging my feelings toward women goes beyond sex,â Sharon continued. âItâs about emotion and intimacy. Things I never got from a man.â
âI donât know anybody who has a truly intimate relationship with a man. Although in all fairness, Phil is probably more capable of intimacy than Sarita. But generally speaking, men are from another planet. You can have sex without intimacy,â I continued. âAnd you can have intimacy without sex. But having both is rare. Most women I know get their intimacy needs met from their good girlfriends and female relatives. Theyâre just thankful if they can coexist with a man. I didnât think true intimacy was even a goal these days.â
âWell, it is for me. But maybe I just want a little more than most women.â
I groaned as I maneuvered around a row of orange construction cones.
âTheyâre always working on the roads here,â Tyeesha observed from the backseat.
âSharon, didnât you say kids on campus donât even get into relationships anymore? Thatâs what you told me. Theyâre ridiculed as Velcro twins if they do. They just go out, drink and pick each other up. Thereâs no intimacy. You said that yourself.â
âSo, Dee Dee, are you wigging out or what?â Sharon asked.
âNo, Iâm not wiggging out,â I said, loosening my tight grip on the steering wheel. âIâm just surprised.â I glanced at Sharon. âHave you ever even been with a woman? Have you even kissed a woman?â
âSee, Mom, thatâs the same thing I asked you.â
âGo back to your music! Dee Dee, if I had, I wouldâve told you. I wouldnât keep something like that from you.â
âYou havenât done anything? Then how did you come up with this foolishness?â I asked, changing to the slow lane.
âYou are wigging out!â
âNo, Iâm not,â I insisted. But I secretly wished I still had a stick shift to grab on to for support. When I turned forty last year, I decided I was too old to shift gears and bought an automatic.
âI donât appreciate your calling my feelings foolishness!â
I could hear the hurt in Sharonâs voice and see Tyeeshaâs eyes widen in my rearview mirror. My voice softened. âIâm sorry, dear heart. I want to support you. I just wondered how you know youâre gay, thatâs all.â
âHow do you know youâre straight?â
âBecause men peel my paint, and women donât. For me, itâs always been that simple.â
âWell, maybe for some of us, things are a little more complex. I would never have
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