agreed.
âMom, you canât have it both ways. I canât grow up and stay your little girl.â
âWell, try.â
âTo answer your question,â I broke in, âno, Iâm not repulsed by the thought of two women being together. Iâve seen it in movies. Iâve read about it in books. If thereâs a good story line, I can share the fantasy. Iâm just not interested in doing it myself, thatâs all.â
âWell, thatâs cool.â
âCool was never the issue. I will continue to be your cool role model,â I said.
Sharon and Tyeesha giggled. âI donât have a problem with gay people,â I continued. âThis is 1996, not 1956. I work with gay people. I even have a gay friend. You remember Randall.â
âHow could I forget? You cried a river on my shoulder.â
âWell, once I got over the shock and the betrayal, Randall and I became closer than we ever were when we called ourselves dating,â I admitted. âHe confides in me and so can you.â
âI was just afraid that you might be more threatened by a lesbian than a gay man.â
âLook, I donât feel threatened at all. That was never the issue,â I said, running a yellow light. âIâm secure in my sexual identity.â
âIâm glad to hear that.â
âIt just seems like you shouldâve figured yours out twenty years ago. Thatâs my only sticking point.â
âMaybe I was in too much denial back then. I was numbing myself with alcohol, remember.â
âSharon, if I remembered the seventies, I wouldnât have really been there.â
âAnd if Iâd come out , back then, I wouldnât have T. Did you ever think of that?ââ
âThatâs right, I wouldâve never been born,â a voice protested from the backseat. âAnd without me, sheâs nothing.â
âDream on, big ears!â Sharon teased.
âI guess sometimes things happen when theyâre supposed to happen,â I conceded.
â SÃ .â Sharon nodded as I pulled in front of her South Loop townhouse.
â No por mucho madrugar amanece más temprano : Just because you rise very early, doesnât mean daybreak is going to come any sooner.â
five
When I first laid eyes on the mediator, I saw that he wasnât fine. Skylar Thompson looked no better than most reasonably attractive brothas in horn-rimmed glasses. But he was still easy on my eyes. Because my eyes werenât looking for fine. They were just scoping for a man that was attractive to me . And Skylarâs full, kissable lips definitely rang my bells. Not to mention his bunny-shaped nose that made me want to nuzzle it. His satiny smooth skin reminded me of the color and finish of a violin that beckoned to be stroked. I enjoyed finding a man attractive by my standards. It was like listening to my own private orchestra.
I wore a dark, loose, African print dress that I hoped camouflaged my weight. Iâd been good last night. Iâd walked on my treadmill forty minutes and avoided my usual late-night snack. Iâd eaten a light breakfast and a vegetarian lunch. Tomorrow night, Iâd be taking my first belly dance class. Now, if I could just land this brotha, it would feel like Christmas in July.
Skylar cleared his throat. His eyes were earnest. âI asked for a private meeting, or âcaucusâ as we like to call them, with one disputant at a timeââhe paused, massaging his chin with his thumb and index fingerââin order to first get a clear idea of your goals and needs.â
My goal is to get to know you better, and my need is get to know you better , I thought, gazing accross the conference table. Iâd always been a sucker for earnest eyes.
âMediation is a non-adversarial process,â Skylar continued.
Iâm a lover, not a fighter , I thought, dreamily supporting my chin with one
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