chosen to be gay. But Iâm not ashamed of who I am. And Iâm not going to beg for anybody elseâs approval.â
âI donât think you should. You have to do whatâs right for you. Itâs just a surprise, thatâs all. I mean, you mustâve had some inkling all these years. Youâre forty-two years old, for heavenâs sake. Isnât it a little late to be coming out of the closet?â
âYeah, itâs embarrassing. Iâm probably too ancient to do anything about it. My dentures might fall out,â she said sarcastically.
âYouâre getting oral now. Remember, Tâs here.â
âI forgot for a minute.â
âSpeaking of Tyeesha, I would expect it more coming from her.â I sighed. âI hate to say it, but it just seems so lame at your age.â
âExcuse me?â Tyeesha pulled off her headphones. âKeep my name out of it.â
âItâs just that youâre young, your hormones are raging. Your motherâs on the verge of menopause. Her hot days are behind her. Sheâll be facing hot flashes soon,â I said.
âLife begins at forty,â Sharon declared.
âWell, for the record, Iâm strictly dickly,â Tyeesha informed me.
âYour virgin behind better hush,â Sharon warned.
âSharon, didnât you have a crush on a teacher or friends or somebody?â
âYeah, a few times, but I repressed them. Boys showed interest in me and I was relieved. I didnât see being gay as an option.â
I hesitated. âYou didnât have a crush on me, did you?â I asked, glancing at the rows of chocolate brick apartment buildings above the freeway.
âYeah, I did.â
âOh, really? When?â I swallowed.
âWay back when we were kids.â
âOh.â I breathed a sigh of relief. And let a car cut in front of me. âWhen we were still back at Morgan Park High?â
âNo, even before that, eighth grade, back at Shoop. As soon as I got to know you, it wore off.â
âWell thanks; I mean, Iâm glad that your attraction was short-lived. But you know you could do worse.â
âYou canât have it both ways. Youâre my best friend, but youâre just not my type, romantically. Thatâs all.â
âSo, what is your type, romantically? I mean, just out of curiosity.â
âIâm not sure. But youâre a little too artsy to be my type. Maybe weâre too much alike.â
âWell, thatâs a relief.â
âSo, Dee Dee, tell me quick before I faint. Is we friends or is we ainât?â
âI hope we stay the best of friends,â I said, glimpsing the breathtaking downtown skyline. âThis doesnât change that as far as Iâm concerned.â I sighed. âI guess I was partly looking at this from a marketing standpoint. I just like to think of my friends as being on the cutting edge. I mean, lesbian is so passé. Can you at least identify yourself as bisexual? That way you can keep your options open. You should see all the personal ads in the Sun-Times from black women who are bi-curious or bisexual. Itâs damn near an epidemic. Why not ride that wave?â
âBecause Iâm not interested in being trendy. Iâm just interested in being Sharon.â
I glanced sideways at Sharon as I exited the freeway. âGirlfriend, I may not understand you, but I accept you.â
âThen can I be open with you?â
âOpen about what? You havenât done anything. You donât have any firsthand experience. You donât even have a lab coat yet.â
âIf and when I do, I donât want to feel like I have to repress myself. Like I canât talk about stuff. If the thought of two women making love repulses you, let me know now.â
âUgh,â Tyeesha volunteered.
âGrow up, Tyeesha.â
âYeah, grow up Tyeesha,â I
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