on my bed and closed my eyes and drifted away to a place where broken hearts didn’t exist. This was my place that I needed to go because reality wasn’t a fair game and it was being a bitch to me.
*****
I was at the school’s gym on the treadmill with Yellowcard’s “Only You” blaring in my ears from my iPhone. I pushed the speed to six mph and tried to forget about everything that dealt with Sophia, but it was a lost cause. Then out of nowhere it hit me when the chorus of the song came on. She was my only one and I couldn’t give up. We all made mistakes but mistakes were meant to be forgiven. I didn’t care how selfish I was being, I was brought back to North Carolina for a reason. I needed to try harder and show her that I’m back for good and I wasn’t leaving her alone anymore. I needed her to talk to me and let me back in. She deserved an explanation and I needed to get rid of this guilt. The mere thought of her not knowing what I felt tore me apart and caused an ache throughout my body. I couldn’t bear being around her again and not having her back. This was it; this was what I needed to do.
After thirty minutes of running, I got off the treadmill and got my bag from the locker room. The work out helped but I was still frustrated. The pent up aggravation still ate away at me. I felt dizzy so I took out my water bottle and drank more water. I walked out of the gym and started walking back to the apartment. I turned the corner when someone walked right into me. They jerked their body from mine and when I looked to see who was standing in front of me, my mouth went dry and I couldn’t talk.
Sophia.
“Adam.” Her voice was small and I could tell she was shocked to see me. Her eyes went wide and I wanted to put a smile on her face.
“Hey pretty girl.” I should’ve walked away and not looked back but she had me at the palm of her hand. I was tired of not being around her and wanted things to be normal. “How are you?”
She looked away from me and looked at her damn shoes. “I-I have to go, Adam.”
I grabbed her arm, “No. Sophia, wait!” She turned her head and looked at me. All the breath in me disappeared. She needed to hear me out. “I’m sorry, alright?” I was waiting for a response from her but nothing came. She stared at me and looked confused. “Please, pretty girl, answer me.” I was still holding her hand and didn’t want to let her go, not yet. “I don’t care what you’re thinking but no one is going to make me change my mind and I don’t care who you’re with. I’m back Soph and I’m not leaving again. Please can you say something?”
The awkward silence was killing me. Why couldn’t she answer me? I struggled with myself and nearly took her in my arms so I could feel her heart beating with mine. She took my arm and backed away from me. “I can’t do this, Adam.”
Before I could say anything, she ran from me and never looked back. This was my punishment and the beginning of a long road to redemption.
I stood there and watched her as she walked away from me. I was frozen and couldn’t move. She kept walking and when she turned the corner, she was gone. I bit my lip and closed my eyes. My heart broke again and this time I wasn’t sure what I had to do. I turned around and walked back to the apartment. When I got back, I saw Connor at the kitchen table on his laptop.
“Hey,” I said putting my bag down and grabbing a bottle of water from the refrigerator.
“What’s up? How was the gym?”
I took a sip of my water. “Fine. I saw Sophia. We talked for two seconds and she walked away from me.”
Connor looked up from the laptop and narrowed his eyes. “Listen, I know you want her back and all, but you gotta stop. Focus, Adam. We have try outs tomorrow and we need to start thinking about Optimax. You can’t keep going back and forth with this. Now you know I love Sophia and I miss her, but she’s fucking with your head and you can’t even see
*****
I was at the school’s gym on the treadmill with Yellowcard’s “Only You” blaring in my ears from my iPhone. I pushed the speed to six mph and tried to forget about everything that dealt with Sophia, but it was a lost cause. Then out of nowhere it hit me when the chorus of the song came on. She was my only one and I couldn’t give up. We all made mistakes but mistakes were meant to be forgiven. I didn’t care how selfish I was being, I was brought back to North Carolina for a reason. I needed to try harder and show her that I’m back for good and I wasn’t leaving her alone anymore. I needed her to talk to me and let me back in. She deserved an explanation and I needed to get rid of this guilt. The mere thought of her not knowing what I felt tore me apart and caused an ache throughout my body. I couldn’t bear being around her again and not having her back. This was it; this was what I needed to do.
After thirty minutes of running, I got off the treadmill and got my bag from the locker room. The work out helped but I was still frustrated. The pent up aggravation still ate away at me. I felt dizzy so I took out my water bottle and drank more water. I walked out of the gym and started walking back to the apartment. I turned the corner when someone walked right into me. They jerked their body from mine and when I looked to see who was standing in front of me, my mouth went dry and I couldn’t talk.
Sophia.
“Adam.” Her voice was small and I could tell she was shocked to see me. Her eyes went wide and I wanted to put a smile on her face.
“Hey pretty girl.” I should’ve walked away and not looked back but she had me at the palm of her hand. I was tired of not being around her and wanted things to be normal. “How are you?”
She looked away from me and looked at her damn shoes. “I-I have to go, Adam.”
I grabbed her arm, “No. Sophia, wait!” She turned her head and looked at me. All the breath in me disappeared. She needed to hear me out. “I’m sorry, alright?” I was waiting for a response from her but nothing came. She stared at me and looked confused. “Please, pretty girl, answer me.” I was still holding her hand and didn’t want to let her go, not yet. “I don’t care what you’re thinking but no one is going to make me change my mind and I don’t care who you’re with. I’m back Soph and I’m not leaving again. Please can you say something?”
The awkward silence was killing me. Why couldn’t she answer me? I struggled with myself and nearly took her in my arms so I could feel her heart beating with mine. She took my arm and backed away from me. “I can’t do this, Adam.”
Before I could say anything, she ran from me and never looked back. This was my punishment and the beginning of a long road to redemption.
I stood there and watched her as she walked away from me. I was frozen and couldn’t move. She kept walking and when she turned the corner, she was gone. I bit my lip and closed my eyes. My heart broke again and this time I wasn’t sure what I had to do. I turned around and walked back to the apartment. When I got back, I saw Connor at the kitchen table on his laptop.
“Hey,” I said putting my bag down and grabbing a bottle of water from the refrigerator.
“What’s up? How was the gym?”
I took a sip of my water. “Fine. I saw Sophia. We talked for two seconds and she walked away from me.”
Connor looked up from the laptop and narrowed his eyes. “Listen, I know you want her back and all, but you gotta stop. Focus, Adam. We have try outs tomorrow and we need to start thinking about Optimax. You can’t keep going back and forth with this. Now you know I love Sophia and I miss her, but she’s fucking with your head and you can’t even see
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