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else to focus your attention on because this,” she moved her hand back and forth between us, “will never be. We had our chance and you stayed true to you and did whatever you thought was best without any input from me and now you’re paying the consequences for that decision.”
    The truth in her statement was like a fist clenching around my heart. “I know you think I took the love you gave me and threw it back in your face, but I was young and stupid. If I could go back to that night, I would change everything and not worry about what Easton thought.” I reached for her, but she quickly stepped away.
    “That’s ridiculous, Dean. I was fourteen. We kissed, things got a little intense, and I told you I loved you. You all but laughed in my face and left me standing on this beach with a broken heart. Then you brought her here and showed me exactly what I meant to you.” I saw a single tear run down her perfect face and it took everything in me not to reach up and wipe it away. “Now I have to see her every day and she’s my school counselor, actually trying to help me. But every time I see her I picture you, kissing her here, in the exact same spot we kissed, where I told you I loved you.”
    “Lily, please try and understand. I was young and obviously stupid. I thought I was doing you a favor. Easton wasn’t a big fan of anything romantic between us, plus I was about to leave for college. I know it didn’t end up the way I planned, but I really was trying to make things better by ending it then. I figured you would move on quickly and someday we’d find our way back to each other.”
    “I know that’s what you thought, but you were wrong. I don’t understand why you couldn’t be my friend. That’s what I needed. What happened was hard enough, I don’t think you understand what you did to me when you completely left my life.” I saw the storm clouds return to her eyes and knew this time that I was the one who had put them there.
    “I know. It was all horrible timing and I could never show you how sorry I am. After that crap I pulled with Mindi, you wouldn’t talk to me. I tried to apologize and explain myself, but you wouldn’t let me and then the tornado hit. I thought my presence would only bring you more pain, that’s all I seemed to do anyway. I truly thought you’d be better off once I was gone.”
    “Well you were wrong. I truly cared for you and in my own immature way I did love you, but I don’t even know who that girl is anymore and I can’t continue to feel sorry for her and everything that happened. I have to grow up and move forward. Goodbye, Dean.” She practically ran to the trail that would lead her away from me…probably forever.
    “Every day I wish I would have stayed, I don’t even know what made me run away. Fear, I guess. Please tell me I didn’t ruin my one chance at happiness. Why can’t we give it one more try?”
    She stopped, but kept her back turned to me. “How could you do this to me now? You can’t fight your way back into my heart. You shattered everything I thought I knew about us. I used to think if I missed you enough, you’d come back to me. I put you above everyone else and that’s why I have to walk away now. I can’t do that ever again.”

I ran to my car as fast as my legs would carry me. I didn’t want him to see me cry and I didn’t want him to know everything I’d just confessed was a complete lie. I wanted to run back to him so he could make me worthy of his love, make me feel whole again. But I’m not, I’m not worthy of anyone’s love. I should have been with Easton when the tornado hit; I should have died that night and for that I’m living in the hell I deserve.
    I hadn’t made it back to my car when I heard a truck start near the road. I turned to see Dean’s truck sitting on the side of the road, his headlights turned on. Luckily my car wasn’t parked on the main road, so I didn’t think he could see me. Just in case I hid