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Authors: Sarah Dosher
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me...or until she forgave me.
“Me?” She raised her head off her knees and shook it a few times. I assumed she was trying to understand my meaning. “Why dream of me?”
“Sunflower, I may have left this town behind, but I never left you. You were still with me, always in my heart, with every step I took. Don’t ever doubt that.”
She drew her eyebrows together and squinted her eyes. “No, Dean, I wasn’t with you. I was here. Stuck here with no one. You may have thought I was with you, but I wasn’t. I’m not the same person - that girl is dead. She was buried four years ago with her brother while you watched from across the cemetery and then turned your back on her.” She quickly stood and I jumped to block her.
“I know I was wrong to leave. At the time, I thought it was the best for everyone. I was lost, I still am in many ways. The only thing I know for sure is that I’m here now and the only place I ever intend to be again is where you are.”
She turned her back to me and spoke so softly I could barely hear. “Best for everyone? How was taking away the only person I had left good for me?”
I replied almost as softly. “I wasn’t who you needed then. I was broken. Losing Easton broke me. I couldn’t be the person you deserved.”
She spun around and poked her finger into my chest hard enough to knock me back a step. “What I deserved? Did you not think that maybe you should have asked me want I wanted, instead of guessing what I deserved? I didn’t deserve to live through the hell I’ve been in these past four years. I still don’t deserve the pain I suffer. So don’t you dare talk about what I deserve !”
“I never wanted you to be in pain. I would have taken it all away if I could. I made mistakes and did things I shouldn’t have done.” I paused to search for the words that would make her understand how much I regretted leaving her. “Before the tornado you weren’t speaking to me and things between us were almost as bad as they are now. I didn’t know what to do after Easton was gone. I didn’t even know who I was without both of you by my side and I didn’t know how to make things right with us.”
“I was an infatuated fourteen year old girl who didn’t know what to expect from you. What I needed then was my friend, but you took that away from me and never looked back. You have no idea what I’ve been through.” She collapsed on the wet sand and put her head in her hands. “You left because of something you assumed I needed and I suffered every day you were gone.”
I moved to kneel in front of her and placed my arms around her. “I’m here now and I can promise you I’m never leaving again. Life got in the way and sent us both off course. That doesn’t mean we can’t take control back and make things the way they were destined to be.”
She moved away from me and stood again. “Dean, it’s too late. Everything’s changed and nothing is like you remember. Nothing is like you want it to be anymore.”
“I disagree. We can start over - not pick up where we left off, but completely start over. I think we’ve both suffered enough. Don’t we deserve the small amount of peace we could give each other?” She just stared at me and I could tell she’d already made her decision and it wasn’t the one I was hoping for. “Don’t you want to be happy? We both know that no matter what happened in our past, our souls belong together and we will never be completely whole without each other.” I took her hand, lightly kissed her palm, and placed it over my heart. “I’ll never be complete without you.”
“I’m not looking for peace. That’s something I don’t deserve.” She tried to take her hand off my chest, but I forced her to keep it there. “There is no we anymore, so just let me go.”
“I don’t understand. Why do you think you don’t deserve peace and happiness?”
“Like I said, many things have changed. You’re better off finding someone
“Me?” She raised her head off her knees and shook it a few times. I assumed she was trying to understand my meaning. “Why dream of me?”
“Sunflower, I may have left this town behind, but I never left you. You were still with me, always in my heart, with every step I took. Don’t ever doubt that.”
She drew her eyebrows together and squinted her eyes. “No, Dean, I wasn’t with you. I was here. Stuck here with no one. You may have thought I was with you, but I wasn’t. I’m not the same person - that girl is dead. She was buried four years ago with her brother while you watched from across the cemetery and then turned your back on her.” She quickly stood and I jumped to block her.
“I know I was wrong to leave. At the time, I thought it was the best for everyone. I was lost, I still am in many ways. The only thing I know for sure is that I’m here now and the only place I ever intend to be again is where you are.”
She turned her back to me and spoke so softly I could barely hear. “Best for everyone? How was taking away the only person I had left good for me?”
I replied almost as softly. “I wasn’t who you needed then. I was broken. Losing Easton broke me. I couldn’t be the person you deserved.”
She spun around and poked her finger into my chest hard enough to knock me back a step. “What I deserved? Did you not think that maybe you should have asked me want I wanted, instead of guessing what I deserved? I didn’t deserve to live through the hell I’ve been in these past four years. I still don’t deserve the pain I suffer. So don’t you dare talk about what I deserve !”
“I never wanted you to be in pain. I would have taken it all away if I could. I made mistakes and did things I shouldn’t have done.” I paused to search for the words that would make her understand how much I regretted leaving her. “Before the tornado you weren’t speaking to me and things between us were almost as bad as they are now. I didn’t know what to do after Easton was gone. I didn’t even know who I was without both of you by my side and I didn’t know how to make things right with us.”
“I was an infatuated fourteen year old girl who didn’t know what to expect from you. What I needed then was my friend, but you took that away from me and never looked back. You have no idea what I’ve been through.” She collapsed on the wet sand and put her head in her hands. “You left because of something you assumed I needed and I suffered every day you were gone.”
I moved to kneel in front of her and placed my arms around her. “I’m here now and I can promise you I’m never leaving again. Life got in the way and sent us both off course. That doesn’t mean we can’t take control back and make things the way they were destined to be.”
She moved away from me and stood again. “Dean, it’s too late. Everything’s changed and nothing is like you remember. Nothing is like you want it to be anymore.”
“I disagree. We can start over - not pick up where we left off, but completely start over. I think we’ve both suffered enough. Don’t we deserve the small amount of peace we could give each other?” She just stared at me and I could tell she’d already made her decision and it wasn’t the one I was hoping for. “Don’t you want to be happy? We both know that no matter what happened in our past, our souls belong together and we will never be completely whole without each other.” I took her hand, lightly kissed her palm, and placed it over my heart. “I’ll never be complete without you.”
“I’m not looking for peace. That’s something I don’t deserve.” She tried to take her hand off my chest, but I forced her to keep it there. “There is no we anymore, so just let me go.”
“I don’t understand. Why do you think you don’t deserve peace and happiness?”
“Like I said, many things have changed. You’re better off finding someone
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