drive me crazy silly. I loved knowing what was going on because I always worry about you when you're gone and especially when you're in a third world country." This had him pulling me even closer to him and our faces were just a few inches apart. I know that I've always been attracted to him but we've never been this intentionally close to each other and I can't quit looking at his full lips that are slightly parted, without wondering what they taste like and what they would feel like against mine. He must have sensed what I was feeling because he scrunched his face at me. "Claud? What's going on here? You seem... so unlike yourself this morning. You haven't punched me yet for being too close to you and by the look on your face; I would swear that you want me to kiss you right now." "I do... I mean..." His eyes excitedly lit up and he smiled and leaned towards me which had me moving away from him as quickly as I could. "I can't do this. I have way too much on my mind for us to go... THERE! I know that you have known all along about my little lie about my so called sexual status. Yes I'm mad that you've been playing me.... But-" "What? I haven't been playing you-" "Stop it! I don't want to talk about that... I... Caleb.. I... Oh my GOD! I don't know how to talk to you about this! I'm just so... so... Pissed! And ANGRY! And SAD!! Awwwww!!! I just want to scream and punch somebody and just...just... CRY!!!" I didn't realize that I was standing in the middle of the floor until I fell and totally lost it again in front of him. This is so not me and I have got to get ahold of myself. When Olivia lost it after Derek and the kids died I stayed strong for her and managed to hold myself together and I can do it again! I rose up and wiped my face off with the bed sheet and looked at him and he's completely shell shocked and I don't blame him really. I don't think that I've ever thrown a fit like this in my life. "Would you like some coffee? I need some. I'm going to go make us some coffee." I walked out of my room and headed to the kitchen and I heard him slowly walking behind me. "Are you alright? I feel like I just watched a movie about a woman with multiple personalities just lose it Claud! What in the hell is going on with you?" I notice that he's still in his boxers and oh that naked muscled up perfect chest of his is going to distract me if he doesn’t put a shirt on soon. Why didn't I let him kiss me? "Nothing... I'm fine. Did Jason Anderson pay you your retainer yesterday?" Please say no, please say no. I look at the confused look on his face and I can't believe that I just blurted my question out like that after telling him I was fine. "Um... No. He said that he would be in Monday with a check because he was hoping that we could all three go to lunch and catch up. Why are you asking?" Oh I don't think so! Lunch? Who the hell does he think he is? "Yeah... That's not happening. We are not and I repeat NOT taking him as a client. There are dozens of divorce attorneys in this town that he could have gone to. Did you ever wonder why he came to our office? Or my office I guess you could say because we haven't broadcasted that you are there yet." I looked over at him and he seemed deep in thought and I guess I should put him out of his misery because he had no idea what my problem was. "Well maybe.. Just MAYBE he thinks that he's going to pick up with me where we left off over 10 years ago. That is NOT going to HAPPEN!!!" My blood is boiling because I know in my gut that that's what he is up to!! "Wait a minute... Do you mean to say that... you and Professor Anderson... You two... Dated??" I could see the look of disappointment on his face and that look alone is the reason that I'm glad I didn't let him kiss me. "Wow! You're pretty smart there Nerd Boy. Dated wouldn't exactly be the best word to describe what we did though. Banged or screwed would... for a year, and we spent many nights together laughing about the crush