let him move in.
I told him that the first time he flirted with me, heâd be out on his ear. I told him that I didnât love him anymore, though it might have had more effect if I had been entirely certain of that myself. It helped that I knew that he didnât love me, hadnât loved me when he tried to elope with me when I was sixteenâand he was who-knows-how-old.
It was not really as bad as it sounded. He grew up at a time when women married much younger than sixteen. Itâs hard on the older werewolves to adjust to modern ways of thinking.
I wish I could hold it against him, though. It would help me keep in mind that he still only wanted me for what I could give him: children who lived.
Werewolves are made, not born. To become a werewolf, you need to survive an attack so vicious that you nearly dieâwhich allows the werewolf âs magic to defeat your immune system. Many, many of the werewolf âs kin who try to become werewolves themselves die in the attempt. Samuel had outlived all of his wives and children. Those children of his who had attempted to become werewolf had all died.
Female werewolves canât have children; their pregnancies spontaneously abort during the moonâs change. Human women can have children with werewolves, but they can only carry to term the babies who have only human DNA.
But I was neither human, nor werewolf.
Samuel was convinced Iâd be different. Not being moon called, my changes arenât violentâor even really necessary. I once went three years without shifting to my coyote self. Wolves and coyotes could interbreed in the wild, why not werewolves and walkers?
I donât know what the biological answer to that is, but my answer is that I didnât care to be a broodmare, thank you very much. So, no Samuel for me.
My feelings for Samuel should have been neat and tidily put in the pastâexcept that I hadnât entirely been able to convince myself that all I felt for him was the lingering warmth anyone would feel for an old friend.
Maybe Iâd have come to some conclusion about Samuel who had, after all, been living in my home for better than half a year, if it hadnât been for Adam.
Adam had been the bane of my existence for most of the time Iâd lived in the Tri-Cities, where he ruled with an iron hand. Like the Marrok, he had a marked tendency to treat me like one of his minions when it suited him, and like a human stray when it didnât. He was high-handed, to say the least. Heâd declared me his mate before the packâand then had the gall to tell me it was for my own protection, so his wolves wouldnât bother me, a coyote living in their territory. Once he said it, it was soâand nothing I could say would change it in the eyes of his pack.
Last winter, though, he had needed me, and it changed things between us.
We went on three dates. During the first one I had a broken arm and heâd been very careful. On the second, he and his teenage daughter, Jesse, took me to the Richland Light Opera Companyâs presentation of The Pirates of Penzance . Iâd had a great time. On the third date my arm had been almost healed and there had been no Jesse, no middle school auditorium to cool any passionate impulses we might have had. We went dancing and only his daughter waiting for him at his home, and Samuel waiting for me at mine, had kept our clothes on.
After heâd taken me home, I recovered enough to be scared. Falling in love with a werewolf is not a safe thing to doâbut falling in love with an Alpha is worse. Especially for someone like me. I had fought too long to belong to myself, to allow myself to fall into line with the rest of his pack.
So the next time he called to take me out, I was unexpectedly busy. Avoiding someone who lives next door requires a lot of effort, but I managed. It helped that when the werewolves became public, Adamâs time was suddenly taken up with
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