Zoe said, her voice turning raw. âIn a journal she hid in a childrenâs book, a journal she never expected anyone to see, she lied?â
âIâm sorry,â Thomas said again. His back was to her, and his voice was low.
âJust what are you sorry for?â Zoe demanded. âFathering me or not being able to admit it now? I could have a DNA test doneââ
âThat would involve a court battle,â he returned sharply. âI donât think either of us want to go there.â
More scandal. More shame. âWhy donât you want to admit it?â Zoe whispered. She felt the sting of tears behind her lids and she blinked hard. âWe have the same coloured eyes,â she added in a choked voice. âNo one in my familyâno Balfourâhas eyes that are green like mine. But you do.â
She saw his body tense and when he turned to her any possible trace of compassion or pity had completely vanished. He reached to press a button on his telephone. âMy security guard, Hans, will escort you out, Miss Balfour. I believe our conversation is finished.â He paused, his eyesâso green and so coldâmeeting hers. âI donât think I need to warn you that if this story spreads somehow, I could sue for slander.â
Zoeâs eyes widened. âYouâre threatening me?â
âJust stating a fact.â
She shook her head, her gaze falling on a large sterling-silver picture frame on the desk. Slowly, numbly, she reached over and turned it so she could see the photograph inside. It was a picture of a family.
A woman in her early fifties perhaps, with a stylish bob of silvery hair, and two boys and a girl. The girl, she saw with a terrible, creeping numbness, was actually a woman, about her own age. The boys were younger, perhaps in their teens.
He had a family. Of course. She stood there, gazing at her half-brothers and half-sister who would never know her, who would never want to know her. She didnât belong with them. She didnât belong with the Balfours.
She didnât belong anywhere.
Behind her the doors opened, and she felt a firm hand on her elbow. âMiss Balfour, let me show you out,â a man said, his voice polite but unyielding.
Zoe shook off his arm. âDonât touch me.â She turned back to Thomas Anderson, who was looking at her as if she were a bug he had just neatly squashed, a mixture of distaste and relief. âYou can deny it all you want,â she choked, âbut you and I both know the truth.â Hans grabbed her arm again, leading her backwards. Zoe gazed at her father, hurt and hatred boiling up within her and firing her words. âWe both know,â she said, âand Iâll never, ever forget this. Never.â The last word ended on a sob and, shaking off Hans once more, she turned around and strode from the room.
She wasnât aware of the curious gaze of her fatherâs PA, or the several businessmen who entered the elevator on various floors as they sped down to the lobby. She ignored the woman at the front desk and the security guard who opened the door.
She could feel nothing but her own pain, see nothing but the look of utter rejection on her fatherâs face. It was her deepest fear, her worst nightmare, and sheâd just lived it.
Her head felt light and her vision swam; she tasted bile. She needed to find some composure, some control, but she couldnât even begin to know how. She took a deep breath, and another, trying to steady herself, but her stomach heaved and she bent over double, cold sweat prickling on her forehead.
From her handbag she heard the persistent trill of her mobile and with a wild, impossible lurch of hope she wondered if it was her father ringing, having second thoughts, wanting to apologise.
It was Karen. âZoe! I just wanted to make sure youâre coming out with us tonight. Thereâs a new club opening in the
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