looks at me and shakes his head, but heâs smiling. âWhat was that all about?â he whispers.
âI donât know.â But I kind of do. Dadâs been riding Ryan hard all summer, but I know itâs because heâs worried about him. Every morning on the radio we hear about the bombings and the invasions while Dad eats his stale pound cake for breakfast. We all know the days before Ryanâs birthday are ticking like a time bomb. He hasnât done anything about applying to college.
We listen to the post-game, then I switch back to music. We catch the end of Stevie Wonder, then they play âHonky Tonk Womenâ again .
âIâm getting a little tired of that one,â I say as it ends. Ryan gives a half smile and nods. He hasnât said anything for a while, just sitting there. I donât envy him.
The Youngbloods come on. My favorite song this week.
Come on people now
Smile on your brother
Everybody get together
Try to love one another right now
Vietnam. He could be there by Halloween.
Hell, he could be dead by then.
He wouldnât be the first.
And we all know it.
WEDNESDAY, AUGUST 20:
Straight at Me
F erranteâs calling signals as he looks over the helmets of the linemen, directly at me: the middle linebacker.
Peter Sarnoski limped off the field a second ago, and Coach Epstein pointed to the first guy he saw on the sideline to take his place. It happened to be me.
Ferrante slings a short pass over the middle, right toward me. The tight end is coming my way and he steps in front of me and catches the ball. I wrap my arms around his legs and another linebacker helps me finish the job.
Theyâll be working on me, thatâs for sureâthinking Iâm the weak spot. I brush some dirt off my thigh.
I glance at the sideline. There are three or four people kneeling there who probably should be in here instead. Tough luck. I got it.
Ferranteâs no dope. He calls that same pass route from the opposite side, and I see it coming but donât have time to react. Eddie Lorenzo grabs the pass and tries to stiff-arm me, but I duck under and get hold of his leg. He drags me a few yards, but he goes down.
Iâve made two tackles in two plays, but weâre backing up fast.
Coach calls time and huddles up the defenders. âThis is where tough guys toughen up!â he growls. âFirst and goal, backs to the wall. Letâs see what youâve got.â
Coach grabs my face mask and glares at me. Then he turns to Finken, whoâs at middle guard. âTheyâre coming right at you two, and you know it!â he says. âSmashmouth football, right up the gut. Letâs stop âem cold!â
âReadeeeeee,â Ferrante calls, hunched over the line. âReady, set . . . hut, hut.â He takes the snap and cradles the ball, lunging behind the center as Finken is shoved aside. I step into the gap and meet Ferrante head-on, standing him up just long enough for help to arrive and stop him for no gain.
âTheyâre coming at you again, middle men,â Coach says. âWhat kind of candy are you made of?â
I let out my breath hard. This isnât so bad. Itâs like playing in the lot up on Roosevelt Avenue. Only difference is the matching uniforms and the coaches.
Come at me again. Iâm ready.
Ferrante drops back. Lorenzoâs in my face, reaching for the pass, but I duck under his shoulder and deflect the ball to the ground.
My hand stings. I shake it. Lorenzo yells, âPass interference,â but Coach waves him off and says, âGet back to the huddle, pansy.â
These guys are big and quick and have a lot more experience than I do. Theyâre busting my chops on every play, expecting me to fail.
Keep coming at me.
Same play again? Lorenzo is running toward me like a freight train. I pivot, timing my hit so Iâll get there just as the ball does.
But thereâs no pass. Lorenzo
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