is too critical, that she never has a good word to say. The same could be said for him. Heâs always on Richie. Would I like my father if I didnât love him? He was drinking beer and getting louder. His belly strained the waistband of his pants. When people disagree with him or interrupt his monologues on the Trouble with Foreigners, or the Economyâs a Disgrace, he turns up the volume and drowns them out.
âHeâs a dog!â he shouted at Uncle Wayne, referring to the coach of a football team. âTheyâre paying him a million and a half to lose! I wish I had a deal like that!â
âYeah, youâre losing for nothing,â said Aunt Marion. Papa laughed hard at her joke.
You can tell when Aunt Marionâs going to say something sharp because her mouth puckers up, as if sheâs blowing a dart.
She said, âRichie seems a little withdrawn.â
The barb was so pointed Mama barely felt it. Then the poison entered her bloodstream. Aunt Marion was saying that Richie is rude.
(â Heâs not rude !â I wanted to scream. â He just canât stand you !â)
Mama glanced toward the porch. Richie slumped on the railing. His long blond hair needed washing.
âHeâs shy,â Mama explained.
âHowâs he doing in school?â
âOh, fine,â Mama said. âHeâs going to graduate in June. Can you believe it? The time goes so quickly.â
âWhatâs he going to do?â
âGo to college,â Mama said automatically. I wonder if she ever wonders if thatâs true. âMore coffee, Marion?â
âIâll get it, Mama.â Honey leaped up, anxious to serve.
âThatâs okay, Honey. I was going out there anyway. Iâve got to check on the turkey.â
If we followed Mama out to the kitchen weâd see her refill Aunt Marionâs pretty cup and her own with coffee and a splash of cream.
Then weâd see her set down the cups and go into her bathroom and open the medicine cabinet. She takes out an orange vial of pills and shakes one, no, two tablets into her palm, then gulps them down with a handful of water. Now she dries her lips and touches up her lipstick, smiles at herself in the mirror, stops smiling, applies more lipstick, smiles again, comes back into the kitchen, picks up the cups, and reappears.
âHere you go, Marion. I hope I gave you enough cream.â
Why is Mama so afraid? Beneath her perpetual thirst for sleep is a terrible fear of waking.
The good thing about having so many people around is that they tend to dilute the brew. I didnât have to talk to Uncle Toddy; he watched football and charmed Gram and Gramps. They love him. Honey took off Gramâs shoes and rubbed her feet, and told her what was new at school. Gram loves to have her feet rubbed. I donât do that anymore. The nails on her toes look like yellow shells.
Then we helped Uncle Toddy get dinner ready. We mashed potatoes and filled gravy boats. Uncle Toddy sliced open the turkeyâs breast. Honey clamored for the crispy golden skin.
I wrote the grace, but Honey said it. I wasnât in the mood to give thanks. I know I should; millions of people in the world are much worse off than I am. Theyâre starving or buried alive in prison, cancer victims, and abused children, forgotten by GodâWhy doesnât He help them? I have plenty to eat and drink and wear, a warm place to sleep, and my family around me. So it could be worse, and Iâm grateful itâs not, but it probably will be. Amen.
The grace Honey gave was more traditional: âWe thank thee, Lord, for bringing us together, and keeping this family safe from harm,â etc. When she was finished, Grampa patted her hand and said, âWonderful, Honey.â Heâs a man of few words, but he means them. Grammyâs eyes shone with love and pride. âThat was just right, Honey,â she said. âThank you,
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