own way.â
âYou will, Mom. You have your savings and youâll have the proceeds from selling the house.â He bent down and squeezed my hand. âThe important thing, Mom, is that youâll be near me. Iâll get to drop by your apartment all the time.â
Apartment? âAn apartment wonât have much space. Where will I . . .â
Iâd been about to say âdevelop my photos,â but then I remembered that I quit doing that a few years ago. Everything was digital now.
Digital. Used to mean you did it by handâwith your fingers, to be exact. Now digital just meant a machine did it for you. Which was easier and maybe even more precise, but something was lost in the process. Iâd quit taking photos when that became the thing everyone wanted.
Eddieâs brow wrinkled. âWhere will you what?â
I patted the back of his hand. âNever mind, dearâjust havinga senior moment. I seem to be living one long senior moment these days.â
Eddie turned his hand to take my palm. âYou had a hard blow to the head, Mom, but itâs all going to be okay, and you donât have to worry. While youâre here, youâre going to have round-the-clock home health care. And when you get to California, weâll take good care of you.â The way he looked at me made my finger press down, wanting to capture the moment. His eyes glowed with that caring, worried, earnest, eager-to-please puppy dog look that was quintessential Eddie. Heâd had that expression when he was four, and he still had it fifty years later. He used to look at Charlie like that, wanting, so badly, his approval.
Charlie thought that praising a child too much made him weak, that Eddie needed toughening up, that Iâd spoiled him into sissy-hood. His parents had done that to him, I knew, but still, a surge of anger shot through me. Heâd been wrongâso very, very wrong.
âMom? Are you all right?â
I realized Iâd closed my eyes. I opened them to see Eddie squatting beside my chair. I blinked. I saw three of him, and then two.
âYes, yes, Iâm fine.â
âAnd youâre okay with me leaving now and coming back in June to help you move?â
I donât have much choice, do I?
I didnât say it, of course; he was doing the best he could. He was a dentist with an established practice. He couldnât just up and leave it and move out here. Even if he could, I wouldnât ask that of him.
And, truth be told, I was ready for a change. The thought of a move, a whole new life, was exciting. I was ready. Iâd always wanted to live on the coast. And yet . . .
I flashed him a smile. âIâm fine with it, honey.â
âIâll call every day, and with Hope here, we can Skype each other.â
I had no idea what that meant, but I nodded all the same.
His brow furrowed. âAre you sure you donât want to come now?We could catch a later flight. I could pack up a few of your things, and you can just let Hope deal with the house on her own.â
âOh, no, Eddie.â A memory formed in my mind, a long-ago memory from when I was a girl. Iâd wanted to play outside, but Mother had insisted that I resew a button Iâd just sewn in the wrong place on my sweater. âFinish what you start,â sheâd said. I could see her clearly, so clearly, as if she were standing beside me right now. âAlways clean up your messes before moving on to the next thing.â
I blew out a long sigh. Maybe Mother had arranged all this.
âWhat?â
I opened my eyes at Eddieâs voice to see him peering at me, his brow still knitted. I hadnât realized Iâd closed my eyes or spoken aloud. âOh, nothing,â I said, feeling sheepish. âI was just remembering something Mother told me about seeing things through.â
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