rest.
âWell?â
âIt helped for a minute. What was it?â
Norman grinned. He pulled out one of his yellow writing pads. âLiver. Actually, there were two elements in the test. One is the blood content. The other is the endothermic transformation.â
I felt like Iâd suddenly landed in Paris. English wasnât the main language spoken here. âThe what?â
âThe change brought about from the exposure to heat. The steak you had for dinner was rare, but it was cooked. That has to change the structure of the proteins. So, for starters, we remove that element.â He looked like he had just discovered something important, like gravity or popcorn.
âHeatâ¦â I let it sink in. And then I almost threw up. âYou fed me raw liver?â
Norman shrugged. âYour body should be immune to any latent bacteria. Okay, that wasnât the answer. What should we try next?â
âYou fed me raw liver!â I wiped my tongue with my sleeve.
âI think we need to isolate the key components. Blood is extremely complex in some senses, but nearly trivial in others. I know! Wait here.â
He ran off again. The refrigerator opened and closed again. The blender whirred. The evening wore on. Norman tried everything he could think of, which was a lot more than the average person could think of. Much to my surprise, cat food isnât all that bad, except for the little jellylike bits and the occasional crunchy part.
None of it got rid of the hunger for more than a moment. That wasnât great. But something even more disturbing happened. At one point, as he was racing into the room with a glass of blended chicken lungs, Norman stubbed his toe hard against the leg of his desk.
I watched him hopping around in pain, and it wasnât until a few minutes later that I realized what was missing. Part of me was missing. I was just watching, as if the whole thing were happening on a movie screen. I didnât feel any concern. I didnât feel any need to ease his pain.
I didnât feel anything human.
It was the first clear sign that I was losing the battle.
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Nineteen
LOSING THE GRIP
The night welcomed me as I left Normanâs house. It would be so easy to slip into darkness and leave the day world. I could see myself living as a creature of the night. I would find a place where I was safe during the day, safe and undiscovered. Then I would rise with the night.
Nearby, I heard steps. I knew them. Like Vladivost, I also had an old enemy to deal with. I ran through the night. I ran toward the steps. As I started to move, I was on two feet. By the end of the block, I had dropped into the sleek form of a wolf. I moved like an arrow through the darkness, silent, speeding toward my victim.
He was ahead of me, less than a block away now. At first, he didnât even notice what was hurtling toward him. He was just leaving the park.
âHey, doggie,â Lud said when he finally looked in my direction.
I growled.
âNice doggie?â Ludâs voice grew cautious as I rushed closer.
I leaped, hitting him in the chest, knocking him down. He rolled to his knees. I stood, growling, waiting for him to flee. He would run and I would let him run. But Iâd circle him and be waiting. Wherever he ran, I would be there ahead of him. I would be his nightmare.
Run, I thought, quivering in eagerness, holding back until he made his move.
He started to cry.
I growled again and moved a step closer. He dropped to the ground, curled into a ball, and wrapped his arms around his head. His body shook as he sobbed.
Another instant, and I knew I would tear into him. Every instinct was pushing me to attack him. But one tiny human spark inside me held me back. I turned and ran through the night. I raced the streets as a wolf. My path brought me to where Iâd been headed before I heard Ludâs footsteps. When I saw my home, I returned to human shape.
It would be
Gil Brewer
Raye Morgan
Rain Oxford
Christopher Smith
Cleo Peitsche
Antara Mann
Toria Lyons
Mairead Tuohy Duffy
Hilary Norman
Patricia Highsmith