idea? Putting me with a girl?â
âNo one else seems interested in you. Might as well be her.â He jabs a thick finger at a frosted glass door. âYouâve got an appointment with Dr. Sinequa immediately following lunch.â He steps up to the window and pats the lime-green counter. The sour man glaring at the computer monitor is framed in the window and surrounded by shelves full of drugs. Heâs got a Taser at his waist.
Buster says, âI need Shreve Cannonâs morning candy, if you please, Steve-O.â
Steve-O turns to the nearby computer and clacks on the keyboard for a few moments and then disappears back among the shelves of drugs.
âYou noticed the Taser, right? Donât know what your problem is, kid, but if any patient is found behind this counter, Steve-O is allowed to put you down.â
âWhatâs with the
sturm und drang
routine, hoss?â
He turns to me and snatches my wrist and gives a little jerk.
âDonât call me âhoss,â kid. Look around this place.â He stops, puts his massive hands on his waist, and looks at me. âSeriously, take a good look.â
I look. Robed zombies wander the hall, passing in and out of the cafeteria, the recreation rooms, the reading area.They murmur, mutter, moan, rock. Busterâs radio squelches and hisses, and a strange garbled noise comes from the tinny speaker. The air stinks of disinfectant and a whiff of raw sewage. The nurses, men and women alike, keep to the nurse station or move very fast toward their destination, as if the toddling shamblers were real zombies instead of medicated ones.
I try, for an instant, to get out of my skin and go behind Busterâs eyesânot to do what I said, but just to understand. Time becomes elastic for that moment, and Iâm out and looking from behind his eyes at me, but then the moment is up and the elastic tether that keeps me associated with my meatsuit snaps me back.
Almost had it.
Buster says, âThis locked-down psychiatric ward has a forty-eight-patient capacity. You wanna know how many patients we have in here?â
No, not really, but I can tell heâs going to tell me anyway. âMore?â
âOne hundred and twenty. Youâre Mister One Hundred and Twenty-One.â
âThatâs crazy.â
âYou hit the nail on the head.â He stops, and then something about his expression clouds. âThe whole world is going batty at the same time. It wasnât like this a year ago.â
âThe insomnia?â
He looks at me like Iâm a moron. âBingo, kid. And these poor soulsââ He taps me on the shoulder. âIncluding your little assâare the first ones to stampede off the cliff.â
Steve-O returns with a small tray holding two small paper cups.
âThereâs your candy, Shreve. Take it.â
I pick up the cups. There are two large capsules in one and a few ounces of water in the other. The pills most assuredly do not have the look of candy, and I would know.
âWhat is this?â
He bristles. âThe red-and-blue one makes you smaller; the yellow one makes you larger. Ainât got time for twenty questions. Take them.â
âWhat if I donât?â
âI hold you down and make you take them.â He looks around for support. âSteve-O, this oneâs gonna be trouble. Come out here.â
Steve-O moves away from the computer station, puts his hand on his Taser, and exits the dispensary through a nearby door.
âYou have three seconds to eat that candy, kid.â
Itâs all happening too fast, and I canât tell if itâs because of the gauze of the drugs swaddling my brain and preventing me from touching the shibboleth or if itâs really just happening too fast.
âThree, twoâ¦â
Everything locks. My whole body goes rigid and thereâs an electric crackling soundâ
pop pop pop pop pop
âand I have no
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