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Authors: Douglas Clegg
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keep in touch, but the past is so difficult to mull over. Please don’t let’s keep in touch. I don’t want to cause you more pain.” She sent a few of these that I saw.
I assumed my father had been writing her late at night, posting his mail without our knowing, begging her to return. “She’s got a new life,” my father would say at times, and begin to brood. “I would love to tell the three of you that she doesn’t love you, but I know she does. This is the hardest thing I’ve ever said. Even in war, nothing was this hard, but I will say it regardless. You must each overcome this. I can’t force your mother to come home. I can’t go chase her down if she is with this other man and she claims that this brings her happiness. You’ve been crying since she left, and you haven’t eaten enough, and you all have to stop it now. She is not the woman I married. She’s not the mother who brought each of you into this world. She changed. Perhaps she’ll change back. But the best we can do is hang tough and get through this. And each of you needs to pitch in and do your share. Accept this, somehow. Accept it now. Life is its own kind of war. You’ve got to fight it and win it.”
As he spoke, I saw his eyes become glassy and distant. I couldn’t look at the sadness in his face, but glanced down at my shoes. Somehow, I felt all of us were to blame. I felt that if I had just been nicer to my mother, she would’ve stayed. If I hadn’t gotten into any trouble, she would’ve stayed. If I’d said my prayers every morning and night, she probably would still have been with us. I have no doubt that Brooke and Bruno felt the same way.
“None of you deserves this,” he said. “Not one of you.”
And that was all he really spoke about it.
6
Now and then, one of us would ask about her. He’d tell us to write a letter and he’d send it. None of us ever wrote a letter, although I started a few, but put them aside. I suppose we accepted the finality on some deep level, regardless of our wants and needs on the surface of things.
Once she wrote to us all and mentioned a new child. She had a new child. A boy. His name was Steven. That’s all she said about him. My father tore the letter up after reading it aloud, tears in his eyes, and held us close. At other times, he went into horrible rages and locked himself in his room for an entire day, screaming, as if at the walls of the house itself.
All this to begin to tell you: Our father was both loved and hated within his own family, he was a hero to the world and to each of us, even though he had his dark periods.
When my father died—was killed—none of it mattered.
CHAPTER SEVEN
1
I couldn't get the images out of my mind:
My father was butchered.
Sliced up.
In pieces.
2
“Man, I’m angry,” Bruno said. “Sucker punched. Dazed. That’s how I’ve felt since finding out. I was just talking to him the other day. And now...” This was the most open I’d ever heard my brother be. He never talked about his inner life or feelings that I knew of. He was a mystery to my sister and me in that respect. “Brooke’s had the worst of it. She’s been depressed this fall. I don’t know why. I know she hasn’t been sleeping right since before this. Now, who knows?” He said this with an appealing meekness, as if he needed something from me. Some reassurance about the good in the world.
I did something I’ve never done before, but I suppose you don’t do what you’re used to doing until a nasty tragedy has stomped you and your family. I reached over and hugged him to my side. Like the little brother he was to me. He put his head on my shoulder and cried for a little bit. I felt like we were little boys again, after having a bully at school say something mean to him about our mom running off, or about his glasses, or how he couldn’t play softball as well as the others.
“They’ll get whoever did it,” I said, without
I assumed my father had been writing her late at night, posting his mail without our knowing, begging her to return. “She’s got a new life,” my father would say at times, and begin to brood. “I would love to tell the three of you that she doesn’t love you, but I know she does. This is the hardest thing I’ve ever said. Even in war, nothing was this hard, but I will say it regardless. You must each overcome this. I can’t force your mother to come home. I can’t go chase her down if she is with this other man and she claims that this brings her happiness. You’ve been crying since she left, and you haven’t eaten enough, and you all have to stop it now. She is not the woman I married. She’s not the mother who brought each of you into this world. She changed. Perhaps she’ll change back. But the best we can do is hang tough and get through this. And each of you needs to pitch in and do your share. Accept this, somehow. Accept it now. Life is its own kind of war. You’ve got to fight it and win it.”
As he spoke, I saw his eyes become glassy and distant. I couldn’t look at the sadness in his face, but glanced down at my shoes. Somehow, I felt all of us were to blame. I felt that if I had just been nicer to my mother, she would’ve stayed. If I hadn’t gotten into any trouble, she would’ve stayed. If I’d said my prayers every morning and night, she probably would still have been with us. I have no doubt that Brooke and Bruno felt the same way.
“None of you deserves this,” he said. “Not one of you.”
And that was all he really spoke about it.
6
Now and then, one of us would ask about her. He’d tell us to write a letter and he’d send it. None of us ever wrote a letter, although I started a few, but put them aside. I suppose we accepted the finality on some deep level, regardless of our wants and needs on the surface of things.
Once she wrote to us all and mentioned a new child. She had a new child. A boy. His name was Steven. That’s all she said about him. My father tore the letter up after reading it aloud, tears in his eyes, and held us close. At other times, he went into horrible rages and locked himself in his room for an entire day, screaming, as if at the walls of the house itself.
All this to begin to tell you: Our father was both loved and hated within his own family, he was a hero to the world and to each of us, even though he had his dark periods.
When my father died—was killed—none of it mattered.
CHAPTER SEVEN
1
I couldn't get the images out of my mind:
My father was butchered.
Sliced up.
In pieces.
2
“Man, I’m angry,” Bruno said. “Sucker punched. Dazed. That’s how I’ve felt since finding out. I was just talking to him the other day. And now...” This was the most open I’d ever heard my brother be. He never talked about his inner life or feelings that I knew of. He was a mystery to my sister and me in that respect. “Brooke’s had the worst of it. She’s been depressed this fall. I don’t know why. I know she hasn’t been sleeping right since before this. Now, who knows?” He said this with an appealing meekness, as if he needed something from me. Some reassurance about the good in the world.
I did something I’ve never done before, but I suppose you don’t do what you’re used to doing until a nasty tragedy has stomped you and your family. I reached over and hugged him to my side. Like the little brother he was to me. He put his head on my shoulder and cried for a little bit. I felt like we were little boys again, after having a bully at school say something mean to him about our mom running off, or about his glasses, or how he couldn’t play softball as well as the others.
“They’ll get whoever did it,” I said, without
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