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quick to remind me every chance he gets,” she said, shifting toher back and folding her arms over her chest. “What will I get out of this arrangement?”
More kisses, her mind immediately responded. And if you stop being so dang stubborn, you’d also get a temporary bed partner. What do you have to lose? You’ll be entering into a relationship with your eyes open and no expectations. You’ll know up front that love has nothing to do with it. Besides, you’ll be giving your child a chance to develop a relationship with a father who cares.
Because of her experience with her father, that meant everything to Savannah. She believed that even when their marriage ended, Durango would remain a major part of his child’s life.
Savannah also needed to think about the other reasons why marrying Durango was a good idea.
Pulling her body up, she shifted to her side. First was the issue of having a temporary bed partner if she decided to go that route. She’d dated but had never been into casual sex so she hadn’t been involved with anyone since Thomas Crawford. She had dated Thomas exclusively for a year and things between them had been going well until he’d gotten jealous about an assignment she’d gotten that he had wanted. He’d even tried convincing her to turn the job down so he could have it—talk about someone being selfish and self-centered. It had been over a year, close to two since she’d broken up with Thomas or slept with anyone. The night she had shared a bed with Durango hadn’t just been a night of want for her; it had been a night of need, a strictly hormonal affair in which she really hadn’t acted like herself.
She tipped her head to the side and moved on to theother reason for marrying Durango. Expectations. Their expectations would be set and neither of them would be wearing blinders. She knew their marriage would not be the real thing. He didn’t love her and she didn’t love him. Having reasonable expectations would definitely make things easier emotionally when the time came for them to split.
The more she thought about it, the more she knew that accepting his offer of marriage was the best thing. Her child would be getting the type of father that she never had; a father her baby would be able to depend on.
And then there were all the other Westmorelands who would be her child’s extended family. She had seen firsthand at Chase and Jessica’s wedding just what a close-knit group they were. Being part of a large family was another thing she’d missed growing up, but it was something her child could have.
Her brain began spinning with all the positives, but she forced herself to think about the negatives, as well. At the moment she could only imagine one. The possibility of her falling in love with him.
She couldn’t even envision such a thing happening, but she knew there was that possibility. Durango would not be a hard man to love. A woman could definitely lose her heart to him if she wasn’t careful. He was so strong and assertive and yet, he was also a giving and a caring person. She noticed his sensitivity in the ways that he saw to her needs: making sure he’d left breakfast for her; coming into her room in the dead of night to make sure she was warm enough; inquiring about her and their baby’s health.
But still, there was no way she could ever fall inlove. She doubted that she could give him or any man a slice of her soul or a piece of her heart.
She knew that no matter how much she enjoyed the time she would spend with Durango during her pregnancy, she could not lose her heart to him. Ever.
Several hours had passed since Durango and Savannah had shared that heated kiss, and the residual effects were so strong that he couldn’t think straight enough to balance his accounting records. Instead of concentrating on debits and credits he was way too focused on the incredible sensations he was still feeling, the electrical jolts that were still flowing through his
More kisses, her mind immediately responded. And if you stop being so dang stubborn, you’d also get a temporary bed partner. What do you have to lose? You’ll be entering into a relationship with your eyes open and no expectations. You’ll know up front that love has nothing to do with it. Besides, you’ll be giving your child a chance to develop a relationship with a father who cares.
Because of her experience with her father, that meant everything to Savannah. She believed that even when their marriage ended, Durango would remain a major part of his child’s life.
Savannah also needed to think about the other reasons why marrying Durango was a good idea.
Pulling her body up, she shifted to her side. First was the issue of having a temporary bed partner if she decided to go that route. She’d dated but had never been into casual sex so she hadn’t been involved with anyone since Thomas Crawford. She had dated Thomas exclusively for a year and things between them had been going well until he’d gotten jealous about an assignment she’d gotten that he had wanted. He’d even tried convincing her to turn the job down so he could have it—talk about someone being selfish and self-centered. It had been over a year, close to two since she’d broken up with Thomas or slept with anyone. The night she had shared a bed with Durango hadn’t just been a night of want for her; it had been a night of need, a strictly hormonal affair in which she really hadn’t acted like herself.
She tipped her head to the side and moved on to theother reason for marrying Durango. Expectations. Their expectations would be set and neither of them would be wearing blinders. She knew their marriage would not be the real thing. He didn’t love her and she didn’t love him. Having reasonable expectations would definitely make things easier emotionally when the time came for them to split.
The more she thought about it, the more she knew that accepting his offer of marriage was the best thing. Her child would be getting the type of father that she never had; a father her baby would be able to depend on.
And then there were all the other Westmorelands who would be her child’s extended family. She had seen firsthand at Chase and Jessica’s wedding just what a close-knit group they were. Being part of a large family was another thing she’d missed growing up, but it was something her child could have.
Her brain began spinning with all the positives, but she forced herself to think about the negatives, as well. At the moment she could only imagine one. The possibility of her falling in love with him.
She couldn’t even envision such a thing happening, but she knew there was that possibility. Durango would not be a hard man to love. A woman could definitely lose her heart to him if she wasn’t careful. He was so strong and assertive and yet, he was also a giving and a caring person. She noticed his sensitivity in the ways that he saw to her needs: making sure he’d left breakfast for her; coming into her room in the dead of night to make sure she was warm enough; inquiring about her and their baby’s health.
But still, there was no way she could ever fall inlove. She doubted that she could give him or any man a slice of her soul or a piece of her heart.
She knew that no matter how much she enjoyed the time she would spend with Durango during her pregnancy, she could not lose her heart to him. Ever.
Several hours had passed since Durango and Savannah had shared that heated kiss, and the residual effects were so strong that he couldn’t think straight enough to balance his accounting records. Instead of concentrating on debits and credits he was way too focused on the incredible sensations he was still feeling, the electrical jolts that were still flowing through his
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