laudanum shouldâve dulled his desire but it hasnât. I can feel himâheâs warm and insistent and wrong and I shouldnât but I want to and my blood burns with the terrible urge to corrupt, defile, destroy.
I donât have long. I should go home. Disappear into my dungeon, let those rusty shackles snap tight. Hide from the truth, which is that Iâm a bad woman and Iâll break this lonely boyâs heart for the simple pleasure of watching beauty bleed.
But I donât care. About me, about Eliza, about anything. Let âem come. Let âem torture me, strip me raw, bare my black-rotted soul to the sun.
Johnnyâs sweet mouth hovers over mine. He murmurs, lips drifting apart in easy invitation, and I bury my hands in his hairâsuch lovely hair, Johnny, you fairy-arse tosserâand the world shimmers into light.
Darkness, the long empty echo of a wet Chelsea street. The artistsâ quarter, lonely and bleak. A doorway looms, wooden steps twisting upwards inside. Cold winter shadows prowl and hunch like beasts. No moon shines. The midnight skyâs black with fog and dirt. Only my candle sheds light, a flickering halo of brightness in hell.
I edge forward, my heart thudding hard.
Heâs here.
I can taste it. Feel it in my fingertips like a long skein of wool unraveling, leading me to him. A bloodstain here, a fragment of cloth there. A smear of vermilion oil paint on a shirt; a telltale crimson hair, tangled in a dead womanâs fingers; the unique shape and depth of the loving slices heâs made in flesh. The homicidal artist whom the newspapers call Razor Jack has killed seventeen people that we know of. I should call for help. I should telegraph Inspector Griffin.
Anything but keep walking into the dark.
My shoes scrape on the threshold, unnervingly loud. My heart jumps like a frog into my mouth. Iâm quivering, my candleâs flame shakes. My courage is lost. I want Lizzie,her bold laugh, her fearless banter, that confident toss of her head.
But Lizzieâs not here. Thereâs only me, Eliza.
I climb the spiral steps, creak, crack. Wind whistles, bringing the oily smell of paint and solvent. I reach the landing. My candle gutters. An artistâs attic boudoir, wide paned windows in the sloping roof. Palettes, brushes, pots of oil and pigments scattered on the floor amongst cushions and torn paper; silken drapes flung scarlet and blue over exposed rafters; a gilt-edged silvered mirror. Oil paintings stacked in the corners, propped against walls: Odysseus resisting the Sirens, triumphant Judith slitting Holofernesâs throat, a waif in gossamer skirts dancing en pointe in a pool of lustrous shadow that might be blood.
His technique is startling, ferocious, the colors unbridled.
A half-finished canvas sits on an easel. Itâs drowning Ophelia, mad and beautiful, her pale hair drifting in cold black water.
The back of my neck prickles, and I whirl.
Glinting green eyes, wild-springing hair the color of blood.
I stammer, my pulse sprinting. He holds no weapon. He doesnât attack me. Doesnât move.
He just smiles eerily in the candlelight. âHello, Eliza.â His voice is lilting, gentle. An educated man. Heâs wearing black trousers, black waistcoat with four buttons in a square, white shirt with loose sleeves cuffed tight. That outrageous, indecently crimson hair springs over his collar, dances before his eyes. Too long, almost to his shoulders.He has a sharp-pointed nose, a delicate red mouth that makes me stare.
Heâs only a few years older than I. Harmless. A beautiful monster.
I swallow, mouth dry. I was stupid to come here. But Iâor was it Lizzie?âI had to see him for myself.
The moment stretches.
âI do apologize,â he offers at last. âWeâve not been properly introduced. Malachi Todd, yours truly.â He makes an elegant little bow.
I dip my head shakily. âIndeed we have