equation, and occasionally fell into bed together under extenuating circumstances, like when Brigitte told Raoul about her bra-shopping trip. âShit, man,â he had complained to her. He called everybody man. âYou got me horny.â
Afterward, in bed, Brigitte asked him if he would shoot 36C for her. âTwo girls getting it on?â he said, lighting a cigarette. âNo problem.â It had taken Brigitte a long time to figure out that even though everything that came out of Raoulâs mouth was sexist, he himself was not. This was confusing, though, and his attitude had lost him several female friends over the years. âYou donât understand, man,â he would say in his own defense. âI love women!â Something must have gotten lost in the translation was all Brigitte could think. As she understood it, Raoulâs suggestion that she publish in Penthouse Forum was really a testament to her storytelling abilities; his agreeing to film two girls getting it on meant lesbians were okay with him.
Still, Raoul had a hard time believing that Brigitte herself might be gay. âEverybody loves Shirley Mayer,â he once told her. âDonât take it so personally. Besides, you fuck like a maniac!â
âMaybe Iâm bi,â Brigitte said.
âEverybodyâs bi.â
âYouâre bi?â
He shrugged then. âMaybe. If I thought about it. I just donât think about it. I prefer women, man. Itâs easier that way.â
Which pretty much summed up the problem with Raoul for Brigitte. He did whatever was easiest, no matter how much harder it might make things for him in the future. Not that he really was gay, or even bisexual. He wasnât. But he was a halfway decent cinematographer who wasted his time serving beer for a living; a fitness freak who could not see the harm in a little pot.
For Brigitte it was better to know the truth up front. If she was gay, so be it. If she wasnât, she would sort her way through that mess, too. But she hoped she was. She hoped beyond hope that her problems were at last about to become interesting.
Brigitte received an inordinate amount of help on her film from Jojo Mankowski. He worked part-time in a department store and lobbied one of his managers to let Brigitte shoot 36C in the lingerie department. âJust so you know, I told him it was about shoplifting,â Jojo informed her before the shoot. âI didnât think heâd go in for all that homo shit.â
Brigitte nodded. Now that she knew the entire class was making gay-themed films she felt safer with themâeven people like Jojo and Davis Bonaire, who himself had offered to record sound for her, one of the least popular jobs on a film set. The two of them still had a tendency to sound foul when they spoke on sensitive topics, but Brigitte decided they probably suffered from an affliction similar to Raoulâsâone in which their mouths did not accurately represent their beliefs.
They shot on two consecutive Sunday mornings, before the department store opened at noon. Paige Cox played the role of the young woman buying the bras, while her girlfriend, Andie Rivette, played the sales associate. Benny Parisi played the boyfriend who comes in and kisses the sales associate at the end, but would only agree to do so after Brigitte assured him Andie wasnât butch. âItâs gotta look like Iâm really kissing a girl,â he warned. âMy parents are gonna see this.â And everyone enjoyed working with Raoul who, though no longer in the program, remained famous for a film about a nude woman who enlists a detective agency to help her find her clothes. It was shot almost entirely from the actorsâ necks up, so there was no on-screen nudityâjust heads bobbing along the bottom of the frame and crazy scenery filling the space above them.
In the end Raoul proclaimed Brigitteâs shoot a success because Paige
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