away Somewhere behind the wind at the back of the sea is my country But how do I get there?
Iâm on deck searching waves for land Reverend is on deck searching waves for his straw hat The wind tugged it from his head and stole it away No hat thin white hair heâll burn if the sun shines hot Hat bobs close Sinks Maybe the whale who swallowed Jonah will eat it Reverend talks, talks, talks about Jonah and the whale Jonah gave his soul to God then ran away God sent the whale to teach Jonah a lesson The whale wasnât hungry or evil It was just a messenger So you see, itâs important to do what God tells you Will a whale swallow me if I donât?
Clouds race sky rolls lightning flashes thunder growls wind shrieks storm breaks Our ship rises shivers falls rises again Reverend says If the ship sinks every precious soul on board will be flung into the sea The Devil is always ready to do evil work Pray with me, child! My guts have their own storm I spew instead
It is a long time before sea calms wind dies rain fades When we are allowed on deck again I stand below a river of colour diving over the ship into the sea Reverend squints at the sky A man named Noah built a ship to escape a great flood that destroyed the earth That rainbow you see is a sign of Godâs grace a sign of hope I gaze at the rainbow If I could reach you I say in my head would you slide me home?
Sunrise sparks a dim sky Sea birds swoop and call Reverend smiles Our journey is over This is our last port of call The storm is behind us civilisation ahead People fuss and scurry Reverend finds a quiet spot Iâm glad to sit down I have something important to tell you I have given you a new name You are now called Anne Do you like the name Anne? I already have an english name Lots of people on the station have english names Boss wonât say language names but I have one My language name is the name Mum whispers when Iâm sick The name she croons when she strokes my hair I love my language name Anne was the mother of the Virgin Mary The Virgin Maryâs family was blessed by God Anne is a name to be proud of! Reverend reaches for my hand I hide it behind my back His face twitches I mean you no harm, Anne But he wonât let me go! I am doing what is best for you But he will keep me trapped I hunch over stare at the deck He sighs You are as stif-necked as Jonah! When we leave the ship donât run like Jonah did A port is a dangerous place for a child Iâm sorry the Church didnât claim you first But you will be in my prayers And donât worry you wonât be alone A government man will meet us on the wharf He will take you to a place suitable for children like yourself A new home awaits you, Anne
People rush about Some talk loud some laugh some push My heart is leaping like a panicked bird Reverend grips my arm Stay close to me People are eager to disembark That terrible storm frightened everyone It is only by the grace of God we have arrived safely I donât want to stay on the ship but I donât want to leave either Whatâs wrong with me? I hear Mumâs voice in my head Be strong When I am upset Mum always says Be strong like I know you are I take a shuddery gulp Tell myself â be strong Reverend pulls me along I breathe deeper pretend I am bigger taller older I walk like Iâm not afraid like I am brave I step onto the wharf The land doesnât move with my feet or sway with my legs like the sea does My knees crumple ground rushes up A hand grabs me Makes me stand A hurried voice says Thank you, Reverend Dale Iâll take charge of the girl now
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Iâm taken to a government place given to a government man sitting in a government chair hard eyes staring Hmm, youâre a thin little thing Well now let me see what