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exit. I go into the kitchen, only to feel Arin hot on my heels. I open the fridge and rummage for nothing in particular, hoping she’ll go away. But she’s standing in front of the swinging door, ensuring our privacy.
    â€œYou really did break his heart, Ashley.” I turn around and face her, noting that a single tear is suspended on her lower eyelash. “He’s on fire for the Lord. Are you sure there’s nothing left between you? That this Seth thing is going to take off? Because someone’s faith might be dependent upon it.”
    I slam the fridge shut. “I imagine you broke his heart too, Arin, when you left for the jungle. I didn’t mean to hurt him, but you never told me he wasn’t a Christian. I was seeing him under false pretenses. And I’m with Seth now. So none of this really matters. It’s just water under the bridge.”
    â€œKevin is a Christian now.” Arin smiles, shrugging her narrow shoulders. “Missionary dating. It’s one of my weaknesses. But guys never fall for me seriously like Kevin did you, Ashley. I’m the cute one they take out to nice dinners. You’re the one they take home to mother.”
    Somehow I feel the sting of that comment. I move over to the sink, and proceed to scrub the spotless counter. “Arin, what are you, twenty-four? You’re an otter, and you naturally want to play. I’m just more serious-minded. Parents think of me as a way for their sons to grow up. It’s the lawyer thing. It makes people think I’m reliable.” Which is a joke in itself.
    â€œKevin doesn’t need to grow up. He’s eighty inside if he’s a day. You’re not taking his feelings seriously.” Arin’s cutesy tone is gone.
    Now she’s making me nervous. “What’s this about, Arin?”
    â€œI just came from Kevin’s house. He thinks Seth is something you need to get out of your system. Frankly, I agree.” She crosses her gangly arms and waits for my reaction. Which I’m trying very hard not to give.
    Breathe. Breathe. “You told him that wasn’t true, right? You told him how long I’ve had this crush on Seth, and it’s more than that now. I love the man.” But I must admit, I’m totally flabbergasted. I hadn’t thought Kevin gave me a second glance after we parted ways. Come to think of it, considering the source, I’m not sure he did.
    â€œKevin is praying up a storm, and he has the faith of a new Christian, Ashley. He believes with his whole heart that God is going to grant him the desire of his soul. Not to mention the fact that his parents never denied him a thing. How would he know what failure even feels like?”
    â€œAshley! Seth is here,” Kay calls from the living room.
    â€œListen, I need to go. I’ll have a talk with Kevin, okay? I promise I’ll let him know I meant what I said. That there was never anything like that between us.”
    â€œHe’s a Christian now, Ashley. Just be careful. I hate to see a brother fall because . . .”
    I don’t wait for her to finish. Do I need this kind of guilt? I have serious issues to contemplate, like how I’m going to get a promotion without stepping in my boss’s erogenous zone, and how I’m going to react when Seth Greenwood actually asks for my hand in marriage.
    In the living room, I just stop at the sight of Seth. He’s chatting up a storm with the group, but stops when his eyes meet mine. My stomach swirls at the sight of him, and a huge smile fills my face. His gem-blue eyes are sparkling, and when he looks at me from across the room, I feel it deep inside. My heart pounds, the back of my knees sweat, and I have to physically think about breathing. I close my eyes to avoid the surging emotions pounding in my heart. It seems like years since I’ve seen him, but it’s only been three days.
    He walks over to me. “Hi,” he says