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determine how people think and how they feel just because that’s what you want.’ Faith wasn’t running on logic now—she was trying to find as many words as she could to throw at him. Something to make him yell back. Something to make him feel something because as he sat there cool and calm she felt humiliated. Exposed. Left out. And that emotion fired her temper even higher.
    A wailing country tune started to sing through the speakers and Faith reached for the knob of the old radio in the dash.
    ‘And I hate country music!’ she said with finality, hearing a small but albeit satisfying click as the radio turned off. With her heart pounding and her palms sweaty, she hoped she’d won. She hoped he knew she didn’t care.
    ‘You don’t hold the monopoly on being hurt, Faith. We’ve all been there. It’s just that some of us learn to close the book and move on while you just want to keep searching for answers you’ll never find.’
    ‘Yes, I want answers! I want to know why. That’s why I do this—I want to know why.’
    ‘Why what?’
    ‘Why...why...’
    Faith’s heartbeat was still high and her nails dug into her palms as she curled them around the steering wheel. Her heart hurt and her eyes stung.
    ‘I want to know why you can’t admit that you like me.’
    ‘You want me to blow smoke and tell you I like you? Is that what this is about? Do you want me to lie and say that I wanted to kiss you back there? I don’t do lies, Faith.’
    ‘You’re an awful man, Cash.’
    ‘Why? Because I don’t like you? Why do you care if I like you or not? Not everyone is going to like you, Faith. You need to deal with that.’
    ‘No, because you pretended to give me a go. You made out you were willing to listen and prepared to learn but you weren’t. You have a closed mind and a closed heart and that makes you a soulless person. A person who is incapable of being loved. No one could ever love you, Cash. You have a black empty soul and if you had your heart broken once—you deserved it.’
    Faith stilled and so did Cash. She could feel his elbow freeze on the console next to her. Something about his complete silence made her mind seize. She’d hit him. She’d finally made him feel something. She’d wanted that—she’d needed him to feel something so she wasn’t the only idiot who exposed themselves today, but it wasn’t relief she felt course through her. It was something else. Guilt. Pain. There was an old scar there; she could feel it and she’d slit it open. She’d become the bully who pushed and pushed until someone else lay bleeding and crying in the dirt.
    Cash took a deep breath then let it out. He turned to look out of the window.
    ‘Maybe I did deserve it,’ he said quietly.
    Faith wanted to say something, apologise, ask him who had broken his heart, but she didn’t. She was confused and hurt and wracked with guilt all at once and the emotions that she’d longed for him to feel now climbed up her throat and clung on, suffocating her with their fierce grip.
    ‘I think it’s best we leave this for now.’ Cash reached for the door.
    ‘No.’ The familiar burning of having to fight clawed at her insides. She wasn’t going to lose. Not again. Not this time. ‘You said I had a week to prove to you that sex wasn’t just sex. A week. And you’re going to give me a week.’ She kept her eyes on his. She wasn’t turning away, no matter how much it hurt. No matter how her stomach felt as his eyes hit hers. She’d seen those eyes soft and loving. She knew he’d felt something when they’d kissed, but obviously he didn’t want to feel it and she wasn’t going to beg.
    He looked away first, nodding. ‘All right. A week.’
    Cash was lucky to get the door shut before Faith put her foot down as far as it would go and made old Red roar as loud as his thirty-odd-year-old engine possibly could.

NINE
    Cash squeezed the top of his nose between his finger and his thumb. Today had been a disaster. The