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cousin started telling dirty stories to his companion who occasionally uttered tiny short laughs. They had intercourse several more times that night. Worn out with tiredness, aching all over with sexual excitement, my penis erect all the time, with pains in my testicles and groin, I stayed standing by the door, incapable of forcing myself back to bed. At last, towards morning, I got back to bed and went to sleep, not without difficulty. I woke up rather late, in the Russian way; my cousin was back in his own bed - he must have left the girl while I was asleep. I never said anything to him about what I had discovered. During the day he left us to return to his father.
    I took advantage of the time that the adults were having their siesta. In Russia, especially in the south, dinner is usually at three or four p.m.: it is the only proper meal in the day; as dinner is exceedingly long, it weighs one's system down so that most people feel the need for a rest immediately afterwards. They have a nap for an hour or two. Later, tea is served at seven or eight with slices of bread and butter, rounds of sausage, cold meat. Sometimes you also get supper at night; in most families that is only occasional. These suppers take place when there are visitors staying late - which is, actually, only too frequent in Russia. Then at midnight or one a.m. a big meal is served, as rich as dinner at three p.m. People sometimes stay at table until three a.m. to the utter despair of the servants who are overworked like slaves in Russia, even in the most liberal and radical families. Thus I managed to get a total of two or three hours - quite unlike my normal habits - when no one noticed where I was, since everyone was doing what I had done and nobody would meet again before evening tea. We got to bed rather late.
    Alone in my bedroom I could hear the girl in the next room going to bed. It brought to mind my cousin's visit the previous night and I was overwhelmed by such violent sexual arousal that it made me take steps of a daring that was quite out of character with the rest of me - I was timid by nature. Wearing only a shirt I went into the student's room and told her I was afraid to sleep alone, asking her to let me sleep in her bed. After a moment's hesitation she consented. It must be remembered that I was only eleven and a half. I was astonished myself at the success of my rash request and was encouraged to take the experiment further. For half an hour or a whole hour - I do not know exactly - I stayed there without moving, lying by the girl's side, our bodies touching under the same bedclothes. Neither of us slept. Finally, I turned over, pretended to make an accidental movement and put my hand on my companion's bare arm. I started stroking it gently. As there was no resistance I grew bolder and touched her foot with mine, then the young lady's calf. I put my hand on the girl's knee. At last, under the spell of ever increasing excitement, trembling with sensuality and with fear at the thought of what my boldness might lead to, I took one of her hands under the blankets and put it on my strongly erect penis. The young lady took her hand sharply away, but said nothing. The silence reassured me. I took the risk of sliding my hand under the girl's shift and caressing first her belly, then her mount of Venus. The moment my hand pressed on the latter, the girl sighed gently and parted her legs. I realised that she too was sexually excited. Then I raised myself up, put my knees between my companion's thighs and tried to put my penis in her vagina. After some groping and a few failures I finally succeeded. While I was performing the act as best I could, she stayed immobile and silent. Only the sighs she uttered from time to time and the few movements she could not hold back told me that she was taking part in what was going on. After the act I lay down besides her without a word being said on either side.
    In the morning when we woke up we had intercourse