Youâre one of the scholarship girls, arenât you?â
There was the smallest of silences while my heart thudded horribly and then a Year Eight girl was calling to Miss Stevenson from across the room.
âCan you get this lamp to work, Miss? The switch is really stiff.â
I looked down as Miss Stevenson hurried off, the Year Ten girls behind her. Then I heard Izzy draw in her breath slowly. âYou got a scholarship, Nicole? Why didnât you tell us?â
âIâ¦Iâ¦didnât really thinkâ¦â
âYou brilliant thing!â said Bryony, patting me on the back.
âWell that explains everything!â said Emily.
Sashaâs eyes sparkled. âWeâre sharing a dorm with a scholarship student! Whoa! I canât wait to tell everyone.â
Then Antonia spoke. âWhat ees scholarsheep?â
âItâs nothing special really,â I said quickly.
âYes it is. Itâs when youâre so clever that you donât have to pay any school fees!â Emily answered her. âMy parents would give anything for a daughter who didnât cost them a bean!â
âMine too,â said Sasha. âI might even have got a bigger allowance if my parents didnât have to pay fees.â
I glanced at Antonia and our eyes met for a split second. She wasnât smiling or scowling or anything, but it still made me feel odd because I didnât know what she was thinking. And she never said a word. All of the others had made some kind of comment about my scholarship that showed they were happy for me. But as usual where I was concerned, Antonia had stayed silent. Maybe she hadnât understood. But she must have done. Emily had explained it clearly.
âActuallyâ¦I donât really want people knowing about my scholarship. They might think Iâm kind ofâ¦geeky,â I said carefully.
âOh, youâre so modest,â said Izzy. âBut donât worry, weâll keep quiet about it if thatâs what you want.â She looked round the table at the others. âWonât we?â
They nodded. All except Antonia.
Izzy bit her lip. I could tell she was embarrassed.
âYou wonât tell anyone about Nicoleâs scholarship, will you, Antonia?â she said, leaning forwards and speaking slowly, to make sure Antonia had understood.
Antonia gave a small shake of her head, then asked whose turn it was to deal. But we never went back to the game, because one of the Year Eights said something about the party just then, and her comment was like a match that turned a small flare into a big fire, as suddenly everyone was discussing what they were going to wear and how great this common room was going to look when it was decorated. The excitement was infectious. It spread into every nook and cranny, except for the lonely place where I was sitting. I so wanted to look forward to the party too, because I knew it would be brilliant. But I couldnât feel a single shred of happiness about it â only a sickly dread that I wouldnât fit in, with my plain ordinary clothes amongst all the glitz and the glamour.
Chapter Six
On Tuesday after school, everyone from my dorm was going to some club or other and although I hadnât planned on going to one, I didnât want to be on my own, so I thought I might join Bryony and Emily at running club. Being alone would only make my head fill up with sad thoughts, like it had done the night before in bed.
I hadnât been able to sleep for ages because Iâd got myself into such a state. My mind had been going over and over conversations and things that had happened since Iâd been at Silver Spires, and Iâd kept on coming back to my thoughts about being the only girl in my dorm with a scholarship and also that I should swap dorms so Antonia could be happy. Perhaps I ought to go to Mrs. Pridham and ask if there was anyone who wanted to swap with me after
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