Eager words came hurrying to her lips.
âMrs RiddellâI donât feel as if I could go away without seeing him. Wonât you try and understand how I feel about it? Itâs such a strong feelingâI canât shake it off. If I go away like this, I shall keep on thinking about him, and about my letterâthe one I wrote and signed Caroline. And I shall keep on thinking, âSuppose it was Jim.â But if I were to see him, I should know.â
The hard colour rose in Nestaâs cheeks.
âAre you calling me a liar?â she said. âBecause if you are, Iâve had about enough. Jim Riddellâs my husband, and Iâve got my marriage lines to prove it. I donât know who you are, and I donât care. Calling yourself a chapâs cousinâs as good a way of getting off as any otherâand you may be one of Jimâs fancy girls, or you may be touched in the head. But this is my brotherâs house and I can do with your room instead of your companyâcoming here after another womanâs husband and giving me the lie about him to my face! Let me tell you that youâll not see him, not if you were to stay here all day. Heâs got something better to do than sit about at home waiting for his lady friends to drop in. Heâs got our keep to earn and a job to go to. And Iâll thank you to be off out of this.â
Carolineâs hand dropped from the door. She looked taller. She was pale.
She said, âGood morning, Mrs Riddell,â and walked out of the house and down the gravel path to the car.
IX
Nesta Riddell had time to wonder what had happened to Jim during the hours that followed. When at last an uncertain step sounded on the gravel path, she ran to the door anxiety flaring into anger.
âWhere have you been?â she began, and then stopped as he lurched past her into the parlour.
She thought at first that he was drunk, but it was fatigue that sent him reeling to the nearest chair.
âWhere have you been?â she repeated. âYou look all in. What dâyou want to go walking about till youâre fit to drop? Six hours youâve been gone, and you couldnât have had a bite or a drop, because you hadnât a copper on you. Hold on and Iâll get you somethingâMinâs got a kettle on.â
She brought him cold meat and vegetables and a cup of strong tea, and followed up the meat with bread and cheese. When he had eaten and she had taken the things away, she came back and looked at him sharply.
âBeen a bit of a fool, havenât you? What dâyou want to go flinging off like that? Youâve been ill, you knowâand you get up out of bed and go walking about for the best part of seven hours on an empty stomach! Batty, I call it!â
He was lying back in one of the red and blue chairs, his face sharpened, his eyes fixed and heavy. He had the look of an exhaustion which was something more than physical. His body had moved mechanically whilst thoughts which he could not out-distance pursued and threatened him. They drove him, and he was driven without hope of escape. He did not know where he had been; only as he lifted the latch and felt his feet upon the new gravel which Tom Williams had laid down fatigue came upon him like an insupportable weight. The food had done him good. Now there was a dullness on him. It was like the fog. He frowned at the recollection of the fog.
âYouâd better get to bed,â said Nesta briskly.
And presently he was in bed and sinking, sinking down, into the depths of sleep.
Happicot kept early hours. Min tired easily, and on the days when Nesta was in one of her moods she would count the minutes till she and Tom could go off to their own room and be alone together. To-night Nesta was most certainly in a mood, not answering when you spoke to her, or if she did answer, fairly snapping your nose off.
Min couldnât help wondering how much longer she was
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