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I heard my name and picked up the phone.
    “Macy, I want to see about pressing charges against him. I was so ignorant and blind to this. He can’t and won’t get away with it.”
    “Ok Mom,” I was still sobbing and more than ready to end this phone call. “Can we talk later Mom; I really just want to rest now.”
    “Yes baby, I’m going to call a lawyer. I’ll get back with you as soon as I know something.”
    We said our goodbyes and hung up the phone and Trevor was still there holding me. The tears had begun to subside but every so often I was unable to hold a few back and the waterworks would start all over again. He never let me go. He never asked any questions. He sat right there next to me the entire time. I always knew that eventually if Trevor and I made anything work out he'd have to know and without realizing it, he'd almost heard everything.
     
    Chapter 6
     
    My eyes were finally starting to dry and Trevor was still holding me. As much as I didn’t want to tell him, I knew he needed to know. After all, he’d just witnessed my breakdown and heard probably more than he needed to and for some reason he was still sitting here. I glanced towards a picture of me when I was four years old that I also keep on my nightstand. I was so young and innocent and probably the happiest kid in the world. I was wearing some Disney character outfit eating a strawberry snow cone. Those were the best days. Now look at me, 23 and a whole hot mess. Why couldn’t I go back to being four then just rewrite my whole life story? It’s never that easy though. Life went on and so have I. There were no more strawberry snow cones in my life, and the ones that were there were not as good as I remembered.
    I sat continuing to stare at different pictures around my room and remember the good times in life. There was another one of me and my best friend from middle school. The two of us were inseparable back then but we went to different high schools and drifted apart. I thought back to the past few days at the bar and just a few hours ago when Trevor and I were having fun then I shut him out and now he was about to know the worst secret of my life. My eyes met with his and he watched me with concern. He looked like he wanted to speak but was afraid of what to say. Hell, even I didn’t know what to say at this point in time. Someone had to talk first and I decided I needed to break the ice.
    “Trevor, I’m sorry you had to see that.”
    “Don’t be sorry. Are you ok? You seemed really upset, I’m worried about you.” His eyes searched mine for some sort of answer. He looked really worried and I hated to see that.
    “I really feel like I need to let you in on the conversation I just had with my Mom. Please just hear me out and then if you never want to see me again, I’ll find a new job or whatever I have to do so you can still play at the bar.” I was preparing myself to lay it all out for him. None one knew but Halley and Gary. This step was everything and I was terrified to tell him. Would I be enough to keep him after he knew?
    “Macy, I don’t care about playing at the bar, I care about you.”
    I let out a small chuckle and replied, “You are full of it, and you love playing at the bar.” He let out a half smile and I began to speak again. “Did you ever wonder why I moved here with my Uncle?”
    “You moved here for school. That’s what he told me when you first moved here and I asked about you. Then he told me to leave you alone.”
    “That’s the partial reason.” I took several deep breaths determined not to start crying again when I told him. Yes, I had been a victim but I have moved on. I kept telling myself I was a strong woman. Nothing or no one can bring me down anymore. Slowly I began letting him in, “When I was 19, my mom’s husband would try to rub against me when we would walk past each other. At first it seemed completely normal, you know when you are trying to get around someone but can’t help