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the contract just asTye and I were starting to talk again, and it felt like things were good between us. Naturally, it was hard not to get my hopes up. But, by now, I knew better. I gave myself a good talking to: “Melissa, remember the pattern. Remember that this happens for a week or two, and then he always goes away.”
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I THINK IT’S TIME FOR YOU TO GO NOW
I didn’t know what to say to Tye about The Bachelor , and so I chose not to tell him anything and just pretend like it wasn’t happening. Part of me wanted to get out of Dallas, to go have an adventure, and leave my heartbreak and emptiness behind. But the other part wanted to stay and be with Tye, and not do anything that might upset our reunion. I couldn’t muster up the courage to discuss it with him, and so I held on to the contract for as long as possible while weighing my options.
At the time, Tye was not the only factor I was considering.
Tye was just Factor #1.
Factor #2: I also had a full-time job. Factor #3: I had an apartment with my roommate, Leah, with whom I shared rent and bills.
I couldn’t afford to go on the show and come back to no job. I wouldn’t be able to pay rent on our apartment if I didn’t have a job. And I certainly couldn’t just abandon Leah.
Of course, Factor #1, Tye, was at the forefront of my mind. I wondered if there would even be a Tye to come home to afterward,if I went and did the show. Or maybe this would be the thing that would finally make him move on completely. As much as I still loved him, after months of being yanked around, I wondered if I even wanted him to be there when I got back. So there were a lot of issues that had to be dealt with, and I didn’t even know where to start.
First, I decided I should deal with my job situation. It would be a make-or-break issue, since going on the show wouldn’t even be an option, if they were going to fire me. I sat down with my boss and told him that I needed to take a leave from work. Because of the confidentiality agreement I had already signed for the show, I couldn’t tell anyone where I was going or what I was doing. Try explaining that to your boss:
“So, I need to take some time off work,” I said. “I can’t really tell you why, or how long I might be gone. It could be anywhere from two weeks to three months. Will you hold my job for me, please??”
I know, I know, it sounded unbelievable to me, even as the words were coming out of my mouth. And it sounds just as ludicrous to me now. But, for some reason, he went for it. He said he could hold my job for me until I got back—I would just have to take an unpaid leave of absence.
Wow . . . Really?? That seemed too easy.
I could live with that; as we all know, I wasn’t exactly in love with my job. And at least that was one major issue checked off my list.
Next up: The roommate. I sat down with Leah one night when we were both home. I really liked her, and I didn’t want to make her feel like I was leaving her in the lurch. But I knew I had to explain what was going on and see what she said. I told her I was probablygoing to need to move out, but I wanted her to know that I would definitely stay if it were going to be a huge inconvenience to find a new roommate.
Shockingly, she totally understood, which was such a relief! She even had an idea for a replacement roommate—one of our fellow Cowboys Cheerleaders. We immediately called this girl to see if she’d be interested, and she said yes right then.
Fantastic!! Gosh, that was really easy, too!
I was so happy to have it work out.
Last up (and most important): Tye. This was the conversation I had been dreading the most because I really had no idea how he would respond. I felt that, in a perfect world, I could go have this great experience on The Bachelor. And then, I could come back home, and he’d still be interested in dating me. The worst-case scenario was that he’d get mad at me and never want to talk to me again. Of course, that
four
•
I THINK IT’S TIME FOR YOU TO GO NOW
I didn’t know what to say to Tye about The Bachelor , and so I chose not to tell him anything and just pretend like it wasn’t happening. Part of me wanted to get out of Dallas, to go have an adventure, and leave my heartbreak and emptiness behind. But the other part wanted to stay and be with Tye, and not do anything that might upset our reunion. I couldn’t muster up the courage to discuss it with him, and so I held on to the contract for as long as possible while weighing my options.
At the time, Tye was not the only factor I was considering.
Tye was just Factor #1.
Factor #2: I also had a full-time job. Factor #3: I had an apartment with my roommate, Leah, with whom I shared rent and bills.
I couldn’t afford to go on the show and come back to no job. I wouldn’t be able to pay rent on our apartment if I didn’t have a job. And I certainly couldn’t just abandon Leah.
Of course, Factor #1, Tye, was at the forefront of my mind. I wondered if there would even be a Tye to come home to afterward,if I went and did the show. Or maybe this would be the thing that would finally make him move on completely. As much as I still loved him, after months of being yanked around, I wondered if I even wanted him to be there when I got back. So there were a lot of issues that had to be dealt with, and I didn’t even know where to start.
First, I decided I should deal with my job situation. It would be a make-or-break issue, since going on the show wouldn’t even be an option, if they were going to fire me. I sat down with my boss and told him that I needed to take a leave from work. Because of the confidentiality agreement I had already signed for the show, I couldn’t tell anyone where I was going or what I was doing. Try explaining that to your boss:
“So, I need to take some time off work,” I said. “I can’t really tell you why, or how long I might be gone. It could be anywhere from two weeks to three months. Will you hold my job for me, please??”
I know, I know, it sounded unbelievable to me, even as the words were coming out of my mouth. And it sounds just as ludicrous to me now. But, for some reason, he went for it. He said he could hold my job for me until I got back—I would just have to take an unpaid leave of absence.
Wow . . . Really?? That seemed too easy.
I could live with that; as we all know, I wasn’t exactly in love with my job. And at least that was one major issue checked off my list.
Next up: The roommate. I sat down with Leah one night when we were both home. I really liked her, and I didn’t want to make her feel like I was leaving her in the lurch. But I knew I had to explain what was going on and see what she said. I told her I was probablygoing to need to move out, but I wanted her to know that I would definitely stay if it were going to be a huge inconvenience to find a new roommate.
Shockingly, she totally understood, which was such a relief! She even had an idea for a replacement roommate—one of our fellow Cowboys Cheerleaders. We immediately called this girl to see if she’d be interested, and she said yes right then.
Fantastic!! Gosh, that was really easy, too!
I was so happy to have it work out.
Last up (and most important): Tye. This was the conversation I had been dreading the most because I really had no idea how he would respond. I felt that, in a perfect world, I could go have this great experience on The Bachelor. And then, I could come back home, and he’d still be interested in dating me. The worst-case scenario was that he’d get mad at me and never want to talk to me again. Of course, that
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