popping two in my mouth at the same time.
I was still sucking on the Altoids when the doctor started feeling around on my lymph nodes and wanted to take a look at my throat. Just as Mom said, âSpit those things out,â I swallowed, and down they went.
âTheyâre gone,â I said, opening my mouth wide and letting the doctor push down my tongue with a wooden tongue depressor. Then he put on a glove and grabbed my tongue, twisting it up and down and all around while I did my best to suppress the glugging and gurgling noises. He had me lay down and poked around at my liver and spleen. Then he sent me out to empty my bladder in a specimen cup.
When I returned he was sitting on his little rolling stool, swiveling gently back and forth as Mom recounted my symptoms over the past few weeks. I could feel him staring at me. âI donât think itâs mono,â he said, âbut weâll run some tests and see what we come up with. Iâd like to get a blood sample, too.â He turned to Mom. âYou can wait here while I walk Sandy down to the phlebotomist.â Then he turned to me. âCome with me, Sandy.â
I followed the doctor down the hall and into a cluttered office. âHave a seat,â he said, pointing to a chair in front of a desk heaped with papers and files while he took a seat behind the desk. âYour mom says youâve had fatigue and flu-like symptoms for several weeks.â I nodded. âYouâre 16?â I nodded again. âSandy, I brought you down here because I want to ask you something straight up, and I want you to be able to answer me without worrying about what your mom might think.â
Instant anxiety seized every cell of my body. I could not meet Dr. Parksâ eyes. I fixed my eyes on the floor and held my breath.
âI smelled alcohol when I was examining your tongue and throat. Thatâs not something I would expect to smell on the breath of a teenager at 8:00 in the morning.â
âMaybe it was the Altoids,â I offered. âTheyâre crème-dementhe flavor.â
âMaybe. The urine and blood tests will tell me if Iâm wrong. I just wanted to give you the chance to tell me about it now if itâs going to show up on these tests.â
I continued to stare at the floor.
âIs there any chance that Iâll find alcohol in your blood or urine?â
I winced. âMaybe,â I stammered. âMaybe thereâs alcohol in the Nyquil I took.â
âYour mom didnât say anything about your taking Nyquil.â
âShe doesnât know. I have the bottle in my backpack.â I felt a huge rush of relief as the story just seemed to flow. âI bought it at the grocery store because itâs for the flu. Iâm not supposed to take it to school, but itâs almost gone. I was going to take the rest of it before I got to school and throw it away before I went in the building. I just wanted to feel better so my parents would let me start taking taekwondo with a friend of mine over spring break.â
I looked up at the doctor. He was rubbing his chin. âAre you taking it as directed?â
I nodded. âDo you think thatâs whatâs making me tired?â
âI donât know,â Dr. Parks replied. âWhat do you think?â
I tried to look him in the eye, but I just couldnât do it. I shrugged my shoulders and looked away.
âYour symptoms sound a lot like depression to me. Is there anything bothering you?â
Part of me wanted to tell him, to just say it. But my throat was tightening, and my eyes were getting watery, and the words simply wouldnât come. âIâm just tired,â I finally mumbled.
The doctor waited a long time before he said, âNo more Nyquil. Letâs get the blood drawn, and then weâll throw away whateverâs in your backpack.â
âAre you going to tell my mom?â I asked.
âNot if
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