come on. It’s time for dinner,” he said, pulling me out of the room down to the dining area.
At dinner there was little talk about Brandon and me getting married or what had happened to cause all of it, but we talked about simple things. His mother had offered to go shopping for me for some new clothes since there was no point in me bringing stuff from my old home here. His father said that he would talk to us both alone about this arrangement in the morning after he came back from getting my school stuff.
Aside from that, it was a simple and peaceful dinner with no fighting, which was really new to me.
When dinner was finished, Brandon wasted no time in telling them goodnight and pulling me back into his room with him. When he lay down on the bed with his arm over his face, I just stood there looking around, starting to feel uncomfortable again. “Uhm, Brandon, where am I sleeping?”
He sat back up looking at me with a small smile playing across his face. “In here with me.”
I felt my heart rate speed up, thinking how I’ve never shared a bed with a guy before, besides the fact I hardly ever slept in my own bed due to the beatings I would get that caused me to black out. “Isn’t there a guest room, I could sleep in?” I asked uneasily.
“Yes, there is a guest room, but I want you to stay here with me. Don’t worry, there’s plenty of room on the bed for us to share. I just want to know you’re safe at all times and it would help me sleep better if I knew you were beside me,” he replied as he moved some covers around. “Now come on. I want to relax and watch some TV before I go to sleep. We both had a long day and need the rest.”
Not wanting to start another fight, I did as he asked and walked over to the other side of the bed and got in. He turned on the television hanging on the wall across the bed. As I got under the covers, I turned my back to him, trying to not think how awkward I felt being in bed with a guy I just married all in one day. As I pulled the pillow closer to my face, I felt the covers being pulled over my shoulder. Closing my eyes, I drowned out the noise in the room and felt him place a soft kiss on my temple.
“Good night, Kami.”
6
“Kami, wake up.”
I felt someone shaking me from the darkness that was swimming around me.
“Come on, open your eyes. It’s just a dream. Wake up.”
When I finally opened my eyes, escaping from the nightmare that was dark and wicked, I found Brandon sitting up over me. I felt the tears run down my cheeks and I turned my back to him, not wanting him to see the tears coming down my face.
“Hey, are you okay?” He asked from behind me, but not moving to come any closer.
“Yeah, I’m fine. Just a nightmare. Sorry for waking you up,” I replied in a soft voice, not turning to look at him.
I closed my eyes and thought how the dream felt so real. I had been in the perfect white room with an aura of peace when a dark cloud swirled around me. I ran to try to escape, but it was faster as it sucked me into darkness. I became defenseless in the blackness, being unaware of what could be lurking in the cloud. That's when I started panicking and was awakened.
I never remembered having any nightmare or dream before tonight. When I normally slept at night, I had been blacked out from being beaten. I don’t even recall the last time I even dreamed. Was this my punishment now, having nightmares, so that I’d be too scared to close my eyes?
How can I stay strong and get past this point in my life if I’m too scared to go to sleep? Even Brandon wouldn’t be able to save me from the demons that plagued my dreams now. This dilemma I must fight on my own. I have been trying to prove to myself that I didn’t need anyone in my life before Brandon showed up. The one thing I was certain of was that in a few short months I’d be out on my own with no Brandon in sight. I just hoped this taught me how to be on my own
At dinner there was little talk about Brandon and me getting married or what had happened to cause all of it, but we talked about simple things. His mother had offered to go shopping for me for some new clothes since there was no point in me bringing stuff from my old home here. His father said that he would talk to us both alone about this arrangement in the morning after he came back from getting my school stuff.
Aside from that, it was a simple and peaceful dinner with no fighting, which was really new to me.
When dinner was finished, Brandon wasted no time in telling them goodnight and pulling me back into his room with him. When he lay down on the bed with his arm over his face, I just stood there looking around, starting to feel uncomfortable again. “Uhm, Brandon, where am I sleeping?”
He sat back up looking at me with a small smile playing across his face. “In here with me.”
I felt my heart rate speed up, thinking how I’ve never shared a bed with a guy before, besides the fact I hardly ever slept in my own bed due to the beatings I would get that caused me to black out. “Isn’t there a guest room, I could sleep in?” I asked uneasily.
“Yes, there is a guest room, but I want you to stay here with me. Don’t worry, there’s plenty of room on the bed for us to share. I just want to know you’re safe at all times and it would help me sleep better if I knew you were beside me,” he replied as he moved some covers around. “Now come on. I want to relax and watch some TV before I go to sleep. We both had a long day and need the rest.”
Not wanting to start another fight, I did as he asked and walked over to the other side of the bed and got in. He turned on the television hanging on the wall across the bed. As I got under the covers, I turned my back to him, trying to not think how awkward I felt being in bed with a guy I just married all in one day. As I pulled the pillow closer to my face, I felt the covers being pulled over my shoulder. Closing my eyes, I drowned out the noise in the room and felt him place a soft kiss on my temple.
“Good night, Kami.”
6
“Kami, wake up.”
I felt someone shaking me from the darkness that was swimming around me.
“Come on, open your eyes. It’s just a dream. Wake up.”
When I finally opened my eyes, escaping from the nightmare that was dark and wicked, I found Brandon sitting up over me. I felt the tears run down my cheeks and I turned my back to him, not wanting him to see the tears coming down my face.
“Hey, are you okay?” He asked from behind me, but not moving to come any closer.
“Yeah, I’m fine. Just a nightmare. Sorry for waking you up,” I replied in a soft voice, not turning to look at him.
I closed my eyes and thought how the dream felt so real. I had been in the perfect white room with an aura of peace when a dark cloud swirled around me. I ran to try to escape, but it was faster as it sucked me into darkness. I became defenseless in the blackness, being unaware of what could be lurking in the cloud. That's when I started panicking and was awakened.
I never remembered having any nightmare or dream before tonight. When I normally slept at night, I had been blacked out from being beaten. I don’t even recall the last time I even dreamed. Was this my punishment now, having nightmares, so that I’d be too scared to close my eyes?
How can I stay strong and get past this point in my life if I’m too scared to go to sleep? Even Brandon wouldn’t be able to save me from the demons that plagued my dreams now. This dilemma I must fight on my own. I have been trying to prove to myself that I didn’t need anyone in my life before Brandon showed up. The one thing I was certain of was that in a few short months I’d be out on my own with no Brandon in sight. I just hoped this taught me how to be on my own
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