said. âIf you want to give them to her, do it yourself.â I felt hot and frightened. I wasnât used to challenging authority. Nor, despite the benign negligence with which we were brought up, were we accustomed to spite or nastiness. I could easily imagine Fionaâs reaction if she knew what Nicola was proposing and how embarrassed and hurt Miss Vane would be.
âOkey doke,â she said. âI will.â She glanced at the watch on her wrist. âAnybody want to come with me?â
Even the boys in her thrall were uneasy about administering such a direct insult to an adult. They kicked at the loose stones of the beach, coughed, stared about them. They were thinking of what their mothers would say if they were caught in such a piece of discourtesy.
âGod,â said Nicola, eventually. âYouâre all such wankers. Iâll do it myself.â
And she did, because I watched her do it, go up to Miss Vane, put her head engagingly on one side, offer her the package. I saw, too, Miss Vaneâs shy smile of pleasure and wanted to run up, snatch it from her hands, throw the horrible corsets into the sea. But of course I didnât, and was punished later by seeing Miss Vaneâs face turn pale, her eyes water, the way she dropped the package into a litterbin. At that moment, I hated Nicola.
One afternoon, things took a different turn. After my music lesson, I came out of the gate of Number Seventeen to find them swinging on the bars across the road.
âHowâs the Groper?â Nicola asked.
âWhat do you mean?â
âHands everywhere,â said Nicola. âOr is it just with me?â She widened her eyes at me. âMaybe he likes them a bit more mature than you, Alice.â
âHow exactly are you defining mature?â asked Orlando, giving the word an ugly sneer. âDo you mean like
you
, Nicola?â
âHeâs a pervert,â said Julian, glancing up at Mr Eliasâs open window. He feinted an elaborate shot with the golf putter heâd taken to carrying around, since he had started golf lessons earlier in the holidays.
âWhatâs perverted about him?â Blushing with embarrassment, I hoped he couldnât hear them. Was that him lurking up there, watching us from behind the dusty folds of crimson velvet?
âHeâs a beastly Hun.â said Charles
âA bloody Kraut,â Julian said daringly.
Iâd never heard either of them use such words or express such sentiments. âYou shouldnât say things like that,â I said. Thunderheads were building up in the distance, and the air danced and crackled with electricity. An equally powerful surge of energy arced dangerously between the seven of us. âHeâs a refugee.â
âHe canât help being a foreigner,â Orlando said.
âKraut lovers, kraut lovers . . .â Jeremy jeered at us.
I stared at him in astonishment. Over the years Iâd known him, he had always been the quiet one, the fatherless boy with the straight-cut blond hair and red cheeks, who usually maintained a timid silence.
âThereâs definitely something funny about him,â said Nicola. I sensed that while they waited for me, she had been playing them off, one against the other, and that now they were jockeying for position, each of them trying to outdo the other, each of them fearful that he would be elbowed out of Nicolaâs charmed circle.
Was I frightened of rejection too? Was I trying to make up some of the ground that had been lost that summer? Or did I feel some deeper alarm? Whichever it was, I suddenly said, âMaybe heâs a spy.â Immediately I knew, Judas-like, that I had sacrificed Mr Elias, made him a burnt offering laid upon the altar of conformity. I passionately wished the words unsaid, but it was too late.
The boys pounced. âA spy? What do you mean? How can he be? How do you know?â
My credibility was at stake.
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