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asked her if she knew and she said yes. I left at that point. I didn’t know he was a monster. I would have never had you come up and listen to that, Aiden.” I lean forward and he steps on the gas pushing me back in the seat.
    “I asked mom how long she knew. She said she knew about Shane, but not us. I told her everything, G.” Grant brings his hands to his face. I now understand why they are all so fucked up. They all protect each other and now I know why.
    “What did mom say?” Grant places his hands on his legs.
    “She cried and said she would have done it sooner.”
    “Does she think we would be mad at her?” Shane turns toward Aiden.
    “She thought it would have been better to keep the secret and hold the burden instead of us.” I see them all take in his words and see collective looks of determination. Aiden pulls into his mom’s driveway but no moves to get out.
    “Hannah this stays in the car. It never leaves here, and it will never be brought up again. Are you clear on this? John doesn’t know anything and we plan on keeping it that way.” Aiden seems like another person as he talks to me.
    “Yes.”
    “Swear to me.”
    “I swear.” I look at him through the rearview mirror. I never want to think about this again. Shane gets out of the car and pulls the seat forward. Grant gets out next and I stay in the back. The door closes and Aiden starts to drive again. I don’t say a word and don’t plan on saying anything anytime soon.

WE PULL INTO THE GARAGE and I get out after him. I follow him inside and stop at the living room. I watch as he walks down the hallway but I stop at the couch. I check my phone and see a few missed called from my mom and Becca. I glance at the clock and see that it’s after four. I should sleep, but I don’t. I look up rental car places in the area and take down the numbers to call in the morning. Aiden comes out after a while and he picks up my legs and sits down resting them on his lap. I meekly gaze over at him as he starts rubbing my legs and he stops at my knees, resting his restless hands over them. I can tell he is struggling and I wish I could help him. I wish I could take it all away. I start to think of Grant and how he is. It explains so much about him. He has major trust issues and it’s because of his childhood. What kind of man could do something like that to a child? It angers me as a person, and infuriates me as a mother. I would have done the same thing as Tori. I can’t blame her for doing it. They have so many skeletons in their closet. I close my eyes and try to escape from reality, and when I do Aiden leans forward and lays his head on my chest. He curls his body around mine and I hold him. I hear his breathing change and know he is holding back the tears. I run my fingers through his short hair and down his neck. He grips me tighter.
    I hold him till the sun comes up. We didn’t sleep, we just lay in each other’s arms.
    “You hungry?” He asks as he lifts his head.
    “Yes.” I smile at him and watch as he gets up.
    “I’ll make breakfast.” He walks into the kitchen and I roll over on my side remaining on the couch. I wonder how she is doing. Should I bring her up? I contemplate all my questions and as usual ask none of them. I smell bacon and decide to get up and shower. I enjoy a hot shower and get out finding Aiden sitting on the bed. He watches me as I get dressed. I go into his closet and grab a t-shirt and pull it over me.
    “Do you still want to leave today?” His voice is low and weak. I walk out of the closet and sit next to him on the bed.
    “I think I should.” He takes my hand and holds it, souls touching.
    “I thought you had until tomorrow?” He looks at me waiting for an answer as I stare at our hands.
    “You have a lot on your plate Aiden. I think you should be with your mom and brothers. You all need each other right know and I don’t think I’m making things better.”
    “What are you talking about?”
    “All