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green loveseat, and her hand automatically went to the gold cross on her neck.
Steve had noticed this habit of Lindsey’s appeared whenever she seemed nervous. “Is that special to you?” he asked, pointing at the cross.
She held it up a little higher and he could see the engraved lines on the face of it. They looked like waves. “It was my grandmother’s,” she said. “It was given to her by a very special man and when she passed away, she wanted me to wear it.”
Thinking that it might help me to find love, no doubt
, she thought.
Steve heard the sorrow in her voice. “When did she pass?”
“Just a few months ago. She had cancer.”
“I’m sorry to hear that.” He could tell she didn’t want to talk about it, so he thought of a way to change the topic. “Was she a Christian?”
“Yes, so I know I don’t have to worry about where she is, but she’s still not with me.” Lindsey hesitated, and then asked the questions she’d wanted to ask for three months. She turned to look directly at him. “What does it look like in Heaven? What is she doing? Has she forgotten about me?” She couldn’t hold back the tears that had formed in her eyes.
Steve didn’t know the answers to those questions, but he saw her desperation and wanted to help. He collected his thoughts before responding. “I know she hasn’t forgotten about you. Remember it says in 1 Corinthians that what remains is love. It is the greatest gift God has given us, and He allows it to continue on when we go to be with Him. I’m sure of that.”
Even though Lindsey knew this to be true, she still struggled with her unanswered questions. “But, I still picture her sitting in her chair working her crossword puzzles, or going to church, or out to dinner. What is she doing now?”
Steve took another moment before he answered. “I used to struggle with the after-life too, but as with the rest of my faith, I have to trust that God provides the best for us. We will be with Him, worshipping Him, and I’m sure we’ll be with our loved ones. I believe that we’ll be together and hopefully will be able to look down on all of our family left on earth.” He paused, and then whispered, “I secretly desire that I’ll be able to travel to all of the places I’m unable to make it to while I’m alive.” He smiled.
“I know what you mean. Maybe I’ll be able to sing in front of others instead of by myself in my car.” She decided to play along.
He saw the light return to her eyes. “Maybe I’ll be able to climb Mount Everest without the oxygen depletion.”
“And, maybe I’ll be surrounded by tons of little babies to snuggle and love.” She clamped her lips tight. That might not have been the right thing to say.
He took it well though, because he had always wanted a large family of his own. He saw her hesitation, and instead of trying to make her feel better, he attempted to change the conversation again. “Tomorrow we’ll go to Lake Minny for the boat tour. It’s supposed to be warm weather, and the breeze on the lake will be cool, so you might want to bring a jacket.”
He knew he sounded like a tour guide, but was suddenly uncomfortable sitting so close to her. He felt as if he had known her before and didn’t want to let her go.
This feeling was new to him. He had dated a few women from his church, but what developed had been a brotherly type of love and nothing more. The beginnings of the interest that he felt for Lindsey didn’t compare to the initial interest he had in the others. Lindsey he found emotionally, physically, and spiritually beautiful.
Lindsey was thankful that he had distracted her. She took that opportunity to stand up and smooth out her skirt. “Thank you for everything tonight,” she said.
He stood and took her hands into his. “It was my pleasure, madam.” He returned to his character and bowed in front of her. “I bid you adieu until morning, then?”
Lindsey’s laughter was heard echoing
Steve had noticed this habit of Lindsey’s appeared whenever she seemed nervous. “Is that special to you?” he asked, pointing at the cross.
She held it up a little higher and he could see the engraved lines on the face of it. They looked like waves. “It was my grandmother’s,” she said. “It was given to her by a very special man and when she passed away, she wanted me to wear it.”
Thinking that it might help me to find love, no doubt
, she thought.
Steve heard the sorrow in her voice. “When did she pass?”
“Just a few months ago. She had cancer.”
“I’m sorry to hear that.” He could tell she didn’t want to talk about it, so he thought of a way to change the topic. “Was she a Christian?”
“Yes, so I know I don’t have to worry about where she is, but she’s still not with me.” Lindsey hesitated, and then asked the questions she’d wanted to ask for three months. She turned to look directly at him. “What does it look like in Heaven? What is she doing? Has she forgotten about me?” She couldn’t hold back the tears that had formed in her eyes.
Steve didn’t know the answers to those questions, but he saw her desperation and wanted to help. He collected his thoughts before responding. “I know she hasn’t forgotten about you. Remember it says in 1 Corinthians that what remains is love. It is the greatest gift God has given us, and He allows it to continue on when we go to be with Him. I’m sure of that.”
Even though Lindsey knew this to be true, she still struggled with her unanswered questions. “But, I still picture her sitting in her chair working her crossword puzzles, or going to church, or out to dinner. What is she doing now?”
Steve took another moment before he answered. “I used to struggle with the after-life too, but as with the rest of my faith, I have to trust that God provides the best for us. We will be with Him, worshipping Him, and I’m sure we’ll be with our loved ones. I believe that we’ll be together and hopefully will be able to look down on all of our family left on earth.” He paused, and then whispered, “I secretly desire that I’ll be able to travel to all of the places I’m unable to make it to while I’m alive.” He smiled.
“I know what you mean. Maybe I’ll be able to sing in front of others instead of by myself in my car.” She decided to play along.
He saw the light return to her eyes. “Maybe I’ll be able to climb Mount Everest without the oxygen depletion.”
“And, maybe I’ll be surrounded by tons of little babies to snuggle and love.” She clamped her lips tight. That might not have been the right thing to say.
He took it well though, because he had always wanted a large family of his own. He saw her hesitation, and instead of trying to make her feel better, he attempted to change the conversation again. “Tomorrow we’ll go to Lake Minny for the boat tour. It’s supposed to be warm weather, and the breeze on the lake will be cool, so you might want to bring a jacket.”
He knew he sounded like a tour guide, but was suddenly uncomfortable sitting so close to her. He felt as if he had known her before and didn’t want to let her go.
This feeling was new to him. He had dated a few women from his church, but what developed had been a brotherly type of love and nothing more. The beginnings of the interest that he felt for Lindsey didn’t compare to the initial interest he had in the others. Lindsey he found emotionally, physically, and spiritually beautiful.
Lindsey was thankful that he had distracted her. She took that opportunity to stand up and smooth out her skirt. “Thank you for everything tonight,” she said.
He stood and took her hands into his. “It was my pleasure, madam.” He returned to his character and bowed in front of her. “I bid you adieu until morning, then?”
Lindsey’s laughter was heard echoing
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