Chapter 1
âI canât do this anymore. Iâm sorry.â
I stopped stirring the white sauce and watched the bubbles rise and burst. After a long, silent moment, I let go of the wooden spoon and reached over to turn off the gas under the pan. It was too late. I could already smell scorched milk. Slowly, because my balance had disappeared, I turned to look at Mike. He looked the same as ever â dark curls like little horns on his forehead, violet-blue eyes rimmed with long black lashes, clear fresh-cream skin. For one stolen moment, I told myself he was talking about something simple like finishing the small rock garden we started planning last Christmas.
His smile was gone.
I opened my mouth to askâ¦I wasnât sure what. Probably something inane like âWhat canât you do? â I looked behind him and noticed two suitcases standing like toast soldiers next to the door.
âI have that conference in New York.â
I brought my gaze back to him but the sentence still didnât make sense with what was going through my head. I blinked, knew it was too slow, knew I was too slow, too tired, too overworked, tooâ¦everything, to understand what was going on. Yet I knew what he was going to say next.
âYou forgot that too, didnât you?â Mike said, a mix of hurt and cynicism flickering over his features before they once again settled into blank stoicism. He sighed and ran his hands through his hair, the little horns sitting upright for several seconds before sinking back to his forehead. âIn another life, this might have worked. Weâd always be together, you and me.â
The words had weight, like they were supposed to mean something to me. I thought we were working. I thought we would always be together. I thoughtâ¦
âItâs just long hours for a little while, Mike. You know that. Youâre doing the same thing. In a few years, our careers will be settled and weâll have time for all the things we want to do.â He knew that. Weâd talked about it before I took the new job. We didnât need to discuss it again when he was offered his promotion. I took an unsteady step toward him, my feet as foggy as my head seemed to be. âItâs your job isnât it?â His skin reddened. âWhat have you done?â
âDonât use that tone with me, Eli. You knew what this promotion meant to me. Still means to me. You knew there would beâ¦changes.â
âWhat changes? What havenât you told me about?â
He stood tall and lifted his chin defiantly; âTheyâre transferring me to L.A., effective after the New York conference.â
All the air huffed out of me and I staggered, my hand only landing on the kitchen counter by chance and preventing me from falling. You didnât tell me. You didnât want to talk this over and decide how weâd make it work . âYouâre leaving me?â
He got angry. âLike youâll even notice. Youâve been so focused on your new job. This is the first time youâve been home early enough to cook dinner in weeks. Most days you come in, shower, then work for a couple more hours before falling into bed and sleeping like youâll never wake up.â He sounded so accusatory â like it was my fault he was leaving me.
âThis is because I havenât been cooking dinner?â
âNo, this is because you donât care about anything but yourself and your stupid job.â
â My job? What about your job? Arenât you leaving me because of that?â
âIâm leaving you because I donât want to live with you anymore!â
Silence descended. Looking at him made my throat tight and my eyes sting but Icouldnât get out of the kitchen. He stood squarely in the doorway to the living room. I spun away from him, unable to witness his self-righteous anger.
âLook. Iâll be back in a week to go through my
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